v o g u e ; unabated

I've once said I pray hard that those close to me and whom I love so dearly will never have to go thru what I have gone thru. It was hard enuf for me to struggle thru life then .

Now, I am helplessly watching 2 of my closest frens going thru what I have gone thru ... God! it rekindles bad memories and hurt. Its even more worst cos I have been there n done that so I know exactly how they feel. Its as tho I m going thru everything all over again..

I feel so helpless .. I wish I can do more than just give them my moral support n try my best to be there for them at all times. I can't sleep at nite thinking abt them. One of them told me mine wasn't tat bad compared to her plight now. Well, my fren mebbe to you but I have gone thru exactly what you are going thru now. mebbe worst but my fate seems to have changed and I am grateful for that.

I look at them and my tears wanna flow but I need to be strong for them too. Just as they need to be strong for themselves. Cos no matter how many frens there are ard you, you are the one facing the problems. You go back alone to the house that you dread going home to. So be strong. if not for yourselves, for the lil ones who love you. Cos no matter how much advise and opinions people give you, the decision is still up to you. Be prepared to face wateva consequences your decision will result in. Its your life, its up to you to change it. But even if u do decide to grin n bear it, u know we will always be here for u.

Doa mereka yg dianiya tu akan dikabulkan Tuhan. InsyAllah. Pray everyday every min in your heart for His guidance, for Him to give you strength. Thats wat I did. Alhamdulillah .. everything seems fine now.

Wistful for Love
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