Been hiding in a corner somewhere planning my attack, deciding what is the best way to slaughter and kill. Total termination!!!
Kwa kwa kwa..no lah just been busy at werk.I had so many things to write about but rite now I dun even know where to start. The beginning of ths week has been crazy. People I was dependant on played me out. Darn! It's ok ah mebbe I was at fault too. Seems like people who do their job unprofessionally won't get far. Should have heeded hubby's advice. Hopefully the team of Darryl, Nik and Raymond will do the job.
So, on another note, this week and next will be full. Apit is away at his Nyai's place till end of this week so I am taking the chance to do more OT and meet up with my girlfriends while I can. Those who are willing to meet up anyways which are the usual lot like Yani, Ida and Marcie. Seems like they are the only ones always there for me. It dun have to be dinner at power packed places or even coffee at prestigous places lah. Duk kopitiam pun aku happy lor. Oh we dun need to be driven around either to meet up so dun have to worry about where to park or how to get there hehehe.
It takes up all kinds of people to make up this world dun you think? People who seems to be happy always going out with friends all around yet you sense that they are lonely. Going home to nothing. I realized that even though I am not well off, I have my family. I go home to my two boys and my mum. At least there's something to look forward to at home rather than just face the 4 walls . Even if you have many friends, everyone at one point, will have their own family commitments to take care of first. Where will you be then? Sitting away at a corner tapping away on your PC/laptop, dreading to go home cos there's nothing to go home to. It's a pitiful sight dun you think? Else you put yourself on such a high pedestral you can't afford to tilt even at the slighest angle. The slighest cracks irks you and makes you go haywire.
Criticism is supposed to be a building material. Learn from them and better yourself with it yet there are people who get so defensive about it. Getting all flustered and over reacting. Drama Mama you tell me? Hehehe I haven't used this term for a long time. Seems like someone new is taking over this title now. Deception; you tell me to what level should it be used? To friends? business associates? Just a simple rule ok .. one lie leads to another and soon your little white lie will turn into a big huge one. Where do you draw the line then? Telling different people different sides of the story only reflects badly on yourself. When these people get together and innocently trade stories, the truth will come out won't it?
I hate people who play other people out especially if that person is something close to me. Trust once lost is so darn difficult to be earned back you know. I've been there..Well, you learn about such people as the time goes by. All I can do is to stay away. I have my own life to take care of. My own shit to deal with. Can' be bothered much with others.
Funny how you think your life is bad yet in front of you, you see people who are more pathetic than you even though they put up a pretty picture. And then you think, hey, my life ain't that bad after all. erkeke
Wistful for Love
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