It's difficult to comprehend you. It's difficult when you can't understand what I really need and want from you. My wishes were simple yet it's hard for you to understand that I am not stopping you from doing what you like but only that you manage your time wisely.
Mebbe I am the one who dun understand you after all. All these years wasted. When I thought I knew you well enuff that you knew me too. I tot wrong didn't I ?? We never really knew each other. When verbal communication is less yet our main source of our communication is via the high technology that is revolving around us now.
This is not the kind of path I dreamt of. I wonder how much further this path will go? Will it lead to Heaven or a dead end? I shudder to think of the end result. So many things left undone so many promises broken. Both of us could never meet our objectives. Is this how far we can go?
You compared your likes to mine? Fine, I will stop mine. You can go ahead with your vices at work which you knew I hate yet you keep on doing it. You can go ahead with wateva you deem is right for you to do. No I am not saying you are to blame. If you think all this while I am unfair to you, then I apologize. Like I said I guess we never really knew each other do we? If we can't respect each others wishes then mutual respect for each other will also deem to exist.
I stopped my activities as per your wishes. I did try. Mebbe tat is not enuff for you? Then I do not know what else you require of me.
Mebbe all that has happened are signs we both chose to turn a blind eye to. Mebbe we have been lying to ourselves all this while. Mebbe it is just not meant to be.
As your words intended so, I will stop my blogs as of this entry. I will cut off all ties with this high technology world that we both love yet cause us so much misery. Mebbe I should move to the most ulu kampung I can find huh? Singapore's high tech life is just not for me.
What started us going down this path might be the very reason we get off this path. Have you ever tot of that? Ironic isn't it?
For now I declare defeat. I am at fault and I shouldn't have started in the first place. It's time I backed out. I guess it's best for all parties. I am not writing to put you down. Like I said this is my only avenue where you can really read my tots and understand me. But still, as I've said before different people tend to read things in different ways. Wateva you understand from my entry, I dun give a hoot anymore.
Goodbye!
Wistful for Love
11:46 PM
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