Do you reli think I'd care what you say? Silly you.They may have acted on your behalf as if reli concerned about it but in actual fact only to enquire on your behalf? Dun I have better things to do? Yes I do.. really lah tak bedek.. more sob stories..but hold on ..wait a moment before you reach for tat hanky dear, I dun intend the sob stories for your knowledge. You only reap what you sow. Why do you think you are standing where you are now? Take a moment and think.
I dun blame or hate them for still being with you. I have no say cos I am neutral. I will stand my ground till you at least come forward to me. Why shouldn't I be the first one? Cos I didn't stab anyone in the back.
Ok now for more of my sob stories as some would call it. Have not been going to work the past few days. Instead have been running to and fro the hospital. Tired as I am, I dun know where I get the energy.Up in the morning, my morning being at least 9am, cook the daily lauk pauk for the family, pack stuff and off to the hospital till 9pm at night.
My mum haven't been admitted for some time which is a pretty good track record I would say. I almost lost track of my bearings around the hospital.All the familiar faces are now gone. Irene have gone overseas, chasing for greener pastures I heard. Of cos Thana is around.The only stable sign that I haven't gone to the wrong hospital heheh.The first thing I heard when I reach the ward was her voice. Hehehe good ole Thana. The ward nurses are also unfamiliar to me. Yet I can already see the different characteristics of the different teams. Mum have also developed her love-hate relationship with the different teams heheh.
But I miss the CAPD outpatient centre which has now moved to the PDC. Sigh what a long way off from the ward when I need to complain or refer something. Scary ok when I need to walk from the ward to the PDC ctr. Especially thru the desolated Blk 3 after SOC are closed.Somemore must walk thru the dark lonely carpark.Err I think I'll give it a miss if I reli have to go there at nite.I'd rather call the CAPD hotline hehehe.Its almost like my 3rd home tho.Now it's only a storage room.
Well, it'll be worse when I start work and have to go to the hospital from there. I tell ya, you'll soon see me dozing off in the NEL ard 9pm every nite then hehehe Just hope I dun drool which I dun normally do anyways hehehe..
Neways, just praying hard mum gets better.She won't be home at least the next 5 days as advised by the Doc. Shout out to my Chong and also my fren Izan for visiting Mum. Hmm must remember buy lotsa bananas for my mum tomorrow. Hope her K and Albumin levels rises soon enuff. I love you Mak.
I may be the degil nak mampos selalu menjawab and buat Mak marah nyer dotter, but I love you very much. Despite my nonchalant attitude to you and constant menyakitkan hati with my rough jokes, I do love you very much and I really care about you. I know you better than anyone else in the world. I'd be lost without you and you know it. You are my pillar of strength all this while helping me bring up my darling Apit and always supporting me in what I do no matter what others may say. No matter how people put me down you always backed me up and gave me the support I couldn't get from the people I loved. Thank you Mak. I know I will never be able to repay all your kindness to me.
Wistful for Love
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