Hell has no fury like a woman scorned!!!!
You had no idea did you honey when you started it? Well now face the fury of a scorned woman.She has been telling me stories again.I dunno if I should be angry or wat?? For now, I am too dissapointed in you. Too hurt..
I tried to make the best of wat I had. To make things like it used to be. But like you said, the past keeps catching up on us as if it did not want us to be happy. Who else can you blame but yourself? I feel pity for myself for I can't bear it any longer. I tried to be strong. I really did.
I wanted to be happy. I wanted to start all over again. I made changes to make you realize. Did you notice that I have changed now? That nanie had died inside. That it is a diff person you face now? Mebbe it is God's way of showing me that the path I have taken is wrong. I need to walk down a different road. A fren ever told me, "it's your life. You either choose to leave it or live it." I tried living it but faced too many hurdles. Mebbe it's time I left it for good. Things might change for the better and I can really be happy again. Even with the excess baggage I'm carrying around.
I'm just waiting for the rite moment. For now I shall sit in the dark and see. I won't hope for any more sunshine for it never rains but pours. I need to look for greener pastures. Even if it means walking down the road alone. Well, does it matter, I have always felt alone anyways.
Wistful for Love
10:24 PM
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It used not to bother me.. I never used to care.. really it never did. Cos I tot my time would come.My turn would be next...I waited patiently yet day after day, year after year, it never did.I consoled myself in little ways. I tried to make the best of what I had.
Yet I dunno why I can't seem to keep it in check anymore. I get irritated and pissed when I hear others talking and bragging about it. Easy for you to say lah.. you are not in my shoes .. Berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu memikul. Ya, I know there are others in a more pitiful situation.
I am not ungrateful for what I have but the lack of insensitivity of some people really pisses me off. You really dun realize how lucky you are do you? How would you like to walk in my shoes for a day? Wonder how long you'd last?Bear the scorching heat that keeps on burning down on me.
I dun need your pity just some sensitivity. Yes I know you are sick of hearing my stories.My lame stories. Well, this is me. The story of my life. Mebbe a major reason why I rather keep to myself nowadays. I know who I am and where I stand. It's definitely not amongst you. I realize now how far I have gone on my own. Yet I am also aware of just how much further I can go.
I am now a resentful person, hating someone for the tiniest reasons. I hate who I am now for I am definitely not such a person. But hey, I am only human. Envy and jealousy is there no matter how much I try to suppress it. I tried to be a good person. I dunno if I am anymore or if I ever was. Mebbe I never really was.. sad to know isn't it? I wonder what good has being a good person got me? Nothing but pain and misery.
I just want people to quit putting me down. I know who I am and where I stand. You just dun have to keep reminding me and insulting me. I dun have much pride left after all that have happen. Will you take away that lil amount of pride I have too? Would you only be happy if I become a pitiful little hermit, hiding away in a corner and so scared of every little shadow that passes by?
Wistful for Love
11:48 PM
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It's nothing great I know but at least it's my own creation..my own attempt. It's just a simple layout I can call my own. Too tired to change much .. mebbe will edit some things here n there when I haf the mood.. ciaos
Wistful for Love
11:06 PM
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Everyday it’s the same ole story. I rather not talk about it anymore. Wat is the point? No matter how hard I strive, my life remains stagnant and unchanged. Preferring to remain quiet rather than be in the open and be misunderstood. Keeping myself away rather than be gossiped about. Mebbe it is for the best that I keep my distance and live my life my on way and in seclusion so as not to dissapoint myself and others around me. If I dun hope I will not get disappointed.That is wat someone told me. Mebbe so lah eh?
Getting disappointed day after day, time after time. I get so tired of it. I rather live each day as it comes and not plan anymore. Work is good. At least I will earn money. So wat if I do? It runs out even faster than it comes in. So for now this blog shall be abandoned, being updated only once a month or when I really feel like it.
Dun speculate, for you know not wat I am going thru. Stories can be made up and wateva you think it is, it may not be so. Dun ask me for I rather not say. For now there is no happiness in my life only depression. Still looking for the sunshine after the rain.
Wistful for Love
7:36 PM
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