v o g u e ; unabated

A leopard's spots may fade but they will never change. That is what I believe. It is tiring to always be one making an effort. The rainbow appeared only for a while after the rain. The thunderclouds quickly came back to block the sunshine from shining down on me.Is it something I did or did not do enuff? Everything is back to square one. Life is so mundane. No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I source, things remain the same. It is as if I did not make an effort at all. All in vain.

I see a shadow lurking behind the trees, waiting to jump out at me when I pass. I seem to know that shadow but yet I cannot confirm his identity. Does not matter, for I have seen such shadows before and it always comes to light. When it does, expect all hell to break loose. Each breakout even greater than before.

This is the calm before the storm for I will not lie down quietly and be stepped and trampled on time and again. I have been hurt before. Hurt too much, I will not take it lying down anymore. If lessons were not learnt before, they will be learnt better. I will make sure of it.

My movements are restricted now as I try to adhere to what is required of me. Yet I see the traffic does not go both ways. It is a one way lane for which I will not go down. I refuse to. Ada pegi ada balik. Understand that? There is no point venturing into a business that you know will not reap profits for I am not running a charitable organization. No idiot will continue a business that keeps getting debits balances.

Now after all that I have written, I know not if you will understand or as before you will misunderstand. If you dun, please dun jump to conclusions. It makes matters worse. Just accept it as it is. Else at least make an effort will you?

Wistful for Love
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