Try as I might, I can't get it out of my mind.. Bleh jadi gila seh .. The more I try to forget, the more it lingers in my mind. Living a life with 2 faces rite now. Saper ada membership kat IMH?? Recommend lah kat aku!!Aku nk book satu bilik kat sana lah ...Arghhhhhhh...
Wistful for Love
6:10 PM
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The girls made my day today.They came over each bringing their families and goodies too...Yummy..too bad me tengah dalam hari so I can't eat much.. Anyways I am on a strict diet ok!! So Miss Cutie, jangan jeles bila aku dah slim nanti!! The reason they came over was to visit Aidi and also to celebrate the birthday babies... namely Idanis(20th) and Miss Cutie(31st).We had loads of fun and lafter as usual whenever we gather hehehe My op site hurt from laffing so much seh ..
Happy birthday girls!!! Click
here for more pics!
Wistful for Love
9:53 PM
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Currently hooked on Kris Dayanti's Coba Untuk Setia:
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Apalah maumu kasih, kau pilih diriku di dalam hidupmu
Nyatanya kulihat ini, tak bisa kau coba untuk setia
Sudah cukuplah sudah, kumemberikan waktu
Kau selalu tak bisa mencoba untuk setia...
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Yang selalu kuinginkan, yang selalu kunanti
Kau coba untuk mengerti, apalah arti mencinta
Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku
Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia...
Back to *, **
Masihkah aku diinginkan, masihkah aku didambakan
Masihkah ada waktu untukmu bersamamu, akankah kujalani hidup...
Back to **
Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku
Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia...
Wistful for Love
11:07 PM
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People say once bitten twice shy..Well not me huh? Bitten so many times still not shy.. Agak nyer aku ni gemuk sgt eh?? Sebab tu suka makan darah aku?? Scars all over me... yet I guess you still come back for more...It hurts you know!! So blardy painful ...
How many times more? I dunno why I keep letting it happen ...Hai lah nyamuk ... sedap sangat ke darah aku ni? Manis agaknyer eh? I wonder why when I had the chance to swat it flat on its face, I let it fly away only to come back for more? Aku suka agaknya kena gigit nyamuk ... This particular nyamuk, I have been feeding it so many times, it has become like a pet to me. I have develop such intense affection for it I let myself be sucked dry...
Bodoh kan aku? Ntah eh ... mebbe lah .. But I guess part of the reason why it that I still have affection for the Nyamuk and still keep a glimmer of hope that one day the Nyamuk will mebbe reform and who knows dengan kuasa Tuhan menjadi seekor butterfly yang cantik?? Miracles do happen you know.
Hmm you must be wondering si Nanie apa merepek plak pelihara nyamuk eh?? Oh dun worry, ni bukan nyamuk aedes... I won't die of Dengue from it's bites.. paling paling pon die of heartache sebab nyamuk blom reform jadi butterfly khekhekhekhe ...
Wistful for Love
6:11 PM
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Hello world....
My name is Rusyaidi Syakir. I arrived on 19th Jan 1518hrs..It's a surprise to me cos I was only due on 4th Feb you see but since I was already full term, the doctors made me come out lah.. I was delivered thru emergency Cesaerian as Ibu's Blood Pressure shot up rather high ... Must have been the lack of sleep and stress at work the past few days...Ibu's now at home too recuperating. It's taking longer for her to heal this time as they cut on the same site as her prev C-sec when she delivered Abg Apit.
Oh Abg Apit's my big bro. I have always heard his voice when I was in Ibu's tummy.He was always saying he loved me very much and asked me not to kick Ibu so much .. khekhe Now that I am out, he really does love me you know.He's always around me,always eager to help Ibu handle me.He carries me at least once a day,help Ibu feed me and the moment he opens his eyes in the morning, he will ask ibu where I am...See my big bro really loves me..
Oh ya, Ayah name me you know. Ibu named Abg so ayah got to name me this time.. Nice name?? Ibu likes it very much too. Ayah didn't tell her my name till a day after I was born you know. So it's a surprise for Ibu too...
Hmm I am getting tired..Before I go, I'd like to say thank you very much to all Ibu's frens, bloggers and non bloggers who came to visit me and Ibu and for all those lovely gifts..Now, for that bottle of delicious milk and nap... See ya around..
Wistful for Love
3:40 PM
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Am I guilty for feeling this way? I dunno.Mebbe its the pregnancy hormones. But tell me again if there is no base for my suspicions?
Where exactly are we heading? What is it that you are searching for? What is it that we lack? What have I not done enough for you?
I dun wanna treat you this way. It hurts me too you know. To see your face and be reminded of it again. I dun wanna go thru all that pain again.
Please.... open up and talk to me. I am not a mind reader. I dunno how or what you are feeling if you dun talk to me. We are partners yet we are strangers. I know I am hurting you with this yet I feel it is the only way you will open up and talk to me. I am too scared to approach you less you flare up and walk away everytime I try.
Wistful for Love
1:53 PM
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I've always wondered what is it that I lack. Emotionally lacking?? Physically I know there are many areas I am really lacking in ...but that has never been a real issue to me...
It has taken me so many years to try and rebuild the trust yet time and again you break it,Not only trust, you break my heart too.Each time so deeply the wounds never really heal. People see me as strong but they dun know how lonely I am.The scars are still so fresh yet you give me another.
A strong front I put up yet I've lost the count of the times I cried myself to sleep.I sometimes wonder it this is all worth it. At this point of time, I had tot I was way beyond the point of caring anymore yet I get so hurt and so emotional over what I discovered. Pregnancy hormones you say?? Mebbe....
Or mebbe it's just a woman's instinct eh?? So far it hasn't let me down.Has it this time??
Wistful for Love
11:33 PM
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First of all, I do hope it's not too late to wish all a Very Happy New Year. I do hope that with the soon arrival of my next prince, it will be a good year for me. So far, I am seeing good prospects. Things are going rather well for me.I managed to achieve what I wanted to achieve hehehe ..
Ok for my update, I have either been working then going back home immediately to rest or went out shopping till my legs are shaking with weakness. On my off days and weekends, I stayed at home quietly, intending to have all the rest I can get and to spend as much time with Afiq as I can before he starts school next week and before baby's arrival. Bu I found myself getting so bored, I spend my time napping whenever Afiq is napping or otherwise occupied with his VCD collection of Barney, Hi 5 and Tom & Jerry cartoons or busy playing his online games with Elmo and his likes..
I have finished baby shopping or so I hope hehehe ... I can't help it. Each time I go out, I can't help buying something for the lil one. Gosh, I find that this pregnancy is going by so fast. My maternity leave will start in 2 weeks time. With Aidiladha next Tuesday and me being on leave on Wednesday& Thursday, it will be even faster.Wednesday will be a hectic day for me as Afiq starts school and I have to rush for my antenatal check up that same afternoon. Will have a lil rest on Thursday, back to work on Friday and off again on Saturday. Tot of taking the Friday off too but I really dun wanna waste my leave.hehe wanna save it .. mana tau ada rezki gi longgggggggggggggggggggg holiday.... berangan aje lah dulu hehe ..
Ok, stop here for now... getting tired soooo easily. Baby is kicking and moving around so fast and hard now. I can see my tummy move from side to side as tho it's made of jelly man ..And it hurts so bad.. I get such terrible backaches I feel like crying and I cant even sleep at nite... uwahhhh ..
Never mind bear with it, once baby arrives, I will be back to my normal self... hehehehe plus with baby in hand!! khekhekhe
Wistful for Love
11:34 AM
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