v o g u e ; unabated

Am too tired to upload photos and events of the weekend.Will do so later when I have the energy and mood.

Went for my antenatal check up on Tuesday. So gynae says wah your baby is big ah?? I was like huh?? The previous time the MO say small? Well, he says its definitely a LOT bigger now. Look at your huge tummy. I tot its only fats? he laugh and pokes rite at the top of my tummy.See!! Here is your baby.Can't be small rite?? I was stupefied. That big?? Can't be ah?? VBAC smaller chance liao?? Now he has got me scared... aiyohh.... never mind I will try my best for VBAC ..wats important is that baby is healthy and well.. And I just pray so hard I will have a smooth delivery.

I am nearing 35th week of pregnancy. 5 more weeks to go. Currently I am having very bad mood swings. It hurts whenever I do anything . When I walk or stand or sit or lie down.My legs feel like jelly. I get so bored when I try to stay at home and rest yet when I go out, I get tired so easily. Sigh the downs of pregnancy.. A part of me wishes baby can come out now.. a part of me hopes it waits till the rite time ...

I have been having bad mood swings.. so bad my temper changes in a minute. Sigh I feel so drained out. The only thing that makes me happy nowadays is looking at Apit's face and hearing his lively chatter. He keeps saying Apit sayang adik ... sayang baby ..Ni Abang Apit tau ibu.. hehe so sweet .. he evens wants to sleep with baby.. so he sleeps near my tummy hugging my tummy ... But even so, he is now away at his Nyai's and I am missing him badly...

I hate this up and down feeling...

Wistful for Love
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