Thursday, September 1

Here I am 5am in the morning, unable to sleep, try as I might. Too bogged down. Head spinning wildly, feeling like it's gonna crack at any moment. I'm at my wits end. I dun seem to be able to find any roads I can walk down.I know this is not the end yet I feel like its the end of the world. My world that is.

Why are you doing this to me? Just what have I done wrong? Have I not been a good enough person in my life? Why can't you be considerate for me? Have pity on me pleasseeeeee...I cry myself to sleep each nite for the past few nites.

You know what? I really feel like running away. From everything I have ever known.I wanna dissapear from the surface of this earth. Alas, but where can I run to? What else can I do? I am just a sitting duck. Waiting like an idiot to be shot and slaughtered heartlessly.

Ya, you can sit there and pity me all you want. You can console me all you want. Give me all the advise in the world if you please but is it really helping? It still ends up with me facing everything myself,struggling so damned hard.Where would all your pity and advise gotten me? Nowhere but I end up being looked down, pitied and just being a nobody.

I have never asked for much in my life. Just having all my basic needs met and for me and my family to be happy and well. Of course I have dreams but I know how far stretched my dreams are no matter how small they are. Lil things others take for granted, lil luxuries people have. All I asked is to be free from all these problems.

Wistful for Love
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