Yesterday was a day of lil hits and plenty of misses. The queen of Blurs is on holiday and somehow she had transferred her "powers" over to me! Isk parah seh asyik aku jek kena kutuk semalam. Humph! korang ketawakan aku eh? Takpelah bukan selalu aku jadi pekak badak per kan? Sigh dunno why but I seem more blurish, more forgetful now. I have just stepped into my 2nd trimester. My brain can't have shrunk that badly yet.
Yes, I am officially in my 2nd trimester. Yippeee in another month's time I would be able to know whether it's a she or a he. As much as I wanna SHE, a He would not be that bad. At least Apit would haf a lil bro to bully. khekhekhekhe. From what I know, I am supposed to feeling my best, at my most energetic and best libido, yet I am feeling so weak and lousy, I just wanna lay in bed, snuggle under the covers and sleep!! Yes, sleep, a luxury that I am still being deprived of. I still can't sleep peacefully and I feel like a zombie. I can't eat as much as I used to. Yesterday was a record wasn't it girls, Uwahh me not daring to eat that delicious Bravissimo, in all the delicious flavours that seem to be from Heaven.There you girls were, enjoying the coolness of it while I was leaning against the car, sweat running down my face just from trying to bear with the pain in my tummy.
Btw, last night I spoke my mind and told her that she has to go. Suprisingly, she took it well and said she was aware of what was happening and what my family is going thru. She promised to go when the time comes. As much as my heart goes out to her, I told her I have to prioritise my family's wellbeing and happiness. She understood. Even though I was so relieved and felt like a tonne of bricks was lifted off my back, I still have this yucky feeling lurking within me. Why must it be this way? What initially was a well meant intention turned out so bad. Well, wat to do? That's life for you. At least I have done my part to help the best I can. I hope you understand my situation and dun blame me for what I am doing now.
Wistful for Love
1:42 PM
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