I have been having weird dreams.. dreams that sometimes seem so vivid. I wake up sweating or in fear. I heard that it's common for preggies to have such dreams cos they say that it's due to our changing hormones, anxiety and nervousness about the baby. Hmm or mebbe I am just too stressed out? Mebbe ...Well, dun you know preggies are temperamental and can be so sentimental??
Try to understand ... sometimes we are so cranky yet can suddenly change to be very cheerful.. Even those who are not preggy can be temperemental and sensitive ... apa lagi kita yg peggy ni with all that raging hormones within us... Please just bear with me will you for the next 6 months or so..
I had a fright yesterday.. I had some spotting and pain in my tummy... Mebbe cos I was too angry at the she devils and over exerted myself ..sigh .. So I laid down in bed with Apit... and by 9 pm or so, I was already asleep. Had some peaceful sleep for a longgg time, I didn't even hear my HP ringing frantically so manyt imes .. Sorry girls, I was really flat out. Woke up at 4 am when hubby came home from work and tried sleeping again after that but again I had difficulty sleeping till 7am this morning .. time to get up and work liao..
Wistful for Love
8:15 AM
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On MC today cos I had an appointment with my gynae.. The scan today wasn't very clear...Sigh too much fat on my tummy hehe ..Hmm how do you lose weight during pregnancy??Neways, all is fine except that I was advised to drink more water.. dunno why..
Hmm it's strange .. I used to drink water worse than a hippo.. since pregnancy I have been drinking less..Even my Colleague noticed..sigh that bad huh?? So, I will try to drink more .. but the hassle of going to the toilet .. sigh the joys of pregnancy..
As for you!! You haven't lost your touch huh? You never fail to make me cry... Especially at the most crucial times.. Each time say sorry .. Your apologies no longer carry any values for me.. You say sorry too often ... Yet you keep on hurting me.. Please dun add on more stress for me... I love you but if u push me too far, I will break down and when that happens dun blame me for taking away all that you have now... Ohhh dun think I am not capable of doing so.. I have tot of it soooo many timess... Just dun push me ok? Dun make me do it!!
Wistful for Love
11:02 PM
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After a hard day's work, it is definitely nice to meet up with good frens for dinner and just have fun ....Bumped into Anna and Yasser and we had even more fun.. kesian Yanni asyik kena kutuk .. padan muko hang!! khekhekhekeh
Got home ard 9.45pm .. too bad my darling apit have already gone to bed.. humphh never wait for his ibu seh .. newayss hugged him tight, kissed him and tucked him in.. now, I wanna go to bed.. Good nite..
Wistful for Love
11:07 PM
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Isn't she gorgeous?? That's Sarah A. My cousin Yatie's newborn baby girl.. Isn't she a beauty?Iskk so geram U know.. like I said earlier, most of those I know are having girls this year .. jeles benar gue ...
Aniways, did nothing much for the weekend. Just went to visit Yatie and Sarah at Simei then brought Apit to the Pet Safari.. he was oohhing and aahing away at the lil rabbits... hmm they dun market kitties anymore?? hmm
Then off to Bedok to my in laws place... we had promised her to stay over for the weekend since it's been a looongg since we last slept over.. Did nothing much there but eat and sleep..Oh bedsides Apit's visit to the doctors for his cough and runny nose, we practically lazed our weekend away.. my in laws are really nice .. they really dote on us. hehehe Stay there we were like royalties.. but still home is best.. so here I am lying comfortably on my comfy bed with Apit snoring gently by my side and hubby away for his nite shift, blogging away to you people..
More likely reason being I can't get to sleep lah .. khekhe boring dunno wat to do khekhekehkhe
Wistful for Love
10:23 PM
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Sushi galore after work .. pasar malam shopping.. wat a way to release tension khekhekhe ..Hubby got the DG back from the dealers after repair so we took some pics to start the new family album.. I messed around with Photoshop and here is my first piece of work.. kehkhekhe
Wistful for Love
11:11 PM
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After more than 12 yrs of marriage my eldest bro and sil, Abg Isa n Kak Su could only envy my other siblings who were like in a race, each having 6-5 kids each...So imagine their joy when Kak Su gave birth to a Baby girl on 3rd June. It was only her 7th mth of pregnancy but due to complications which endangered both mother and baby, they had to operate on her.
Siti Hawa came into this world weighing a mere 1.14kg, causing worry and fear to Kak Su who wasn't able to see her at all after the operation. It was only 2 days later that she got to see her much awaited lil baby girl.
Siti Hawa was admitted into the ICU due to her breathing difficulty and her lil body was unable as yet to function on its own.. Finally after more than a month, weighing at 1.9kg, she will be going home tomorrow.
My bro and Sil endured the month painstaking collecting breastmilk for
Siti Hawa and going to the hospital everyday to feed
Hawa and to hold her, praying always that their baby girl would be fine and allowed to go home soon.. Imagine their joy when they got the news today. I was present and I could see my Bro beaming and smiling so widely and proudly that I was afraid his mouth would ache hehehe I am happy for you ..As for
Siti Hawa, this precious lil princess won't let me touch her!! She squealed and cried at my slightest touch.... Oh!! Sombong eh!! Nanti kau balik umah aku kenyam kau puas puas tau!! hehehe
Also visited my Cuzz, Yatie who gave birth to a baby girl,
Sarah A. Iskkk so geram u know at
Sarah who weighed 3.54kg!! So fair like Japanese baby lah.. and so the tembam like Michelin baby!! Pity I can't take any photos of
Sarah as she is in the Special care unit due to some breathing complications..Never mind when i have the chance I take lahok? ...
Wah seems like this year many of those I know gave birth to baby girls.. so envious ..I will only know my luck on 12th Sept.. Wish me luck dear frens.. Pray that my dream will come true..
Wistful for Love
12:42 AM
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Hubby and I have discussed it and we feel that its about time we really sat down and sort out our finances..For me I have always adopted the I dun wanna to discuss about money cos I was scared it would affect our relationship. After talking to my Sis's BF who is a debt consultant, he advised that we need to discuss about our finances whether we like or not. Money can also cause a marriage to break down. I have seen several marriages fall apart. After discussing with
hubby, we found out that we could stabilize our finances within the next 6 mths if we are disciplined enuff and strive towards our goal together.. InsyAllah, we will make it just in time for baby's arrival. Pray for us my dear frens...
Hubby took leave this Saturday and if his pay comes in, we want to bring
Apit out.. Poor darling, we haven't brought him out jalan jalan since his bday last year to Sentosa... Hmm wondering where to go? Saw the advert on Tv for the Winter Wonderland at Bugis.. but
hubby cant satnd the cold.. Any ideas anyone??
Oh
hubby oso off on National Day, sigh if I knew I would have balloted for the tickets ..
hubby wanted to bring
Apit to Tampines for the nieghbourhood celebrations but I tot even those needed tickets to be balloted mah ... Hmmm dunno wat to do now??
Wistful for Love
12:56 PM
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Sigh another weekend is here.. Here I am stuck at home with no where to go .. No money mah so can just sit at home and rot.. poor Apit, while other kids go out with their parents and enjoy themselves during the weekends he only has his school to look forward to, with his Ibu being badly broke and Ayah working hard from today all the way till tomorrow trying to earn money for us...
I finished work early today even though there were several flights delayed and I had to arrange for the delayed shipments delivery schedule while coordinating with my Batam counterparts and customers. Sigh being reprimanded by the different departments..Being a customer service is really bad.. sigh nothings beats the rapport I have with the good customer.. and the pay I get at the end of the month.. sigh .. If not becos I need the money, I would have left long ago..
Sigh so here I am with Apit beside me waiting for his turn to use the lappy to play his all time fave online games from Sesame Street..oohh he's pestering to finish up faster now so gotto go..
Wistful for Love
6:10 PM
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Was too tired to update yesterday so here goes ...
Was at KK from 10 am till 4pm.. It took 1.5hrs just for me to get a queue number. Gosh.. We were so tired just from all the waiting, cant blame them tho. I found out they had just changed to a new system it was super slow.. had the same experience at work. But lucky I met a nice Gynae, Dr Marianne Hendricks.. very nice lady .. And to finally be able to meet my lil one.. Hehehe can see the hand jutting out as though it was saying Hi to me...baby is growing well and Dr said a lil big for 10 weeks..hehe me kena warned kena jaga my diet else baby would be too big to come out kena C-sec again.. hehe the sight of the lil one made me glow.. That feeling made all the waiting bearable.. Afterwhich, Hubby and I had to go for some blood tests.. I ahve always hated having syringes poked into me..have another appt in another 2 weeks time...Sigh all this wouldn't have been possible without the girls help... Thank you again my dear frens.. you know who u are..
Even tho Hubby and I were tired from all that waiting, he had promised to accompany me to JB cos I was craving for Tepannyaki and Dunkin Donuts!! Ah Dunkin Donuts ni si
jenny nyer pasal ah ni hehehehe display lagik gamba besar besar kat blog awak ..hehe just kidding...
So we only went to JB for food ... Didnt shop at all cos no budget .hafta to go renew my passport before I can go JB again.. Dah kena sound ah gamba lain .. heheh Mana ke tak? Gamba passport tu gamba time gue lagik sweet 16 seh .. skrg dah sour 27!! hehehe ...
***On another note, you made me very dissapointed again .. Did you know I was crying as I sat down next to you? Did you even notice? My silent tears were those of dissapointment and fear.. fear that you'll never be able to change ... I put up a front, trying so hard to be strong for my family especially for my child both Apit and the lil one in me... Inside, I am crying so badly. I am badly in need of your love and protection. I need you to be there for me always to be telling me that all will be fine ...Do you even understand?***
Wistful for Love
11:47 AM
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Tuesday ..mundane Tuesday... nothing much to do at work.. finished my work by 10 am .. sititing ard shaking my legs so that I dun fall asleep at my desk.. not in front of the DGM anyways hehehe...
Monday was ok .. usual Monday shipments backlogged from the weekends.. after work met hubby and Apit at Compasspoint to shop for Apit's swimming attrie cos he has waterplay at school today.. sigh duit lagik .. but for Apit's sake,nvr mind lah ...
So at work again for today, this idiot was irritating me throughout the day.. he kept telling to look at his face everyday so that baby will be as "cute" as him!Oh puhhleaseeeeeee seliseh siaksss ..Amit Amit cabang bayi!!He was pampering me throughout the day, to the extend of grabbing a pen from my hand and scolded me for handling a "sharp" object.And kept asking me if the aircon was too cold for me.. he kept saying he will take care of me and the baby...oh my goodnesss.. really feel like kicking his ass man!I cant help laffing at his antics.. irritating but sweet ...heheh made my day for now..
So tomorrow is the day ... can't wait...
Wistful for Love
12:19 PM
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It's rare that I get to go out with
freon and
marcie on a Saturday cos weekends are always reserved for family but we did go out.It would be a rare occasion cos not only did we meet up but we went to Orchard!! Me in Orchard on a Saturday keh keh keh .. and I wore a colourful rainbow coloured top ...khekhekhe ... Still felt weird tho.. Isk ni kalau beli 4D mesti strike eh?? khekhekhe.After Orchard off to Boon Kend for sup Kambing .. yummy... kenyang gue ..
Sunday was spent lazing ard at home .. My uncle came wif his wife and dotter, Ayu whose the same age as Apit.. Khe khe Ayu's considered my cousin but the same age as Apit , only 2 weeks apart.. Apit has a kenit aunt lah ..So the weekend passed by just like that .. boring ah but wat to do.. If I had the moneyI have rented a car and go to JB and shop like crazy .. sigh It would be a longgggggggg time before I would be able to do that .. hmm mebbe end of this mths pay I could??
Anyways, its two more days before I will be meeting up with the Lil one.. Gosh I just can't wait .. to finally see it.
marcie's gonna know her baby's gender tomorrow.. sigh so envious.. I gotto wait for another 10-11 weeks ..Neways, just be able able to see it for the first time and to know that it is doing well would be sufficient for now...
Sigh back to work tomorrow.. Hopefully I can get thru the day peacefully and easily.. That's life huh? Keje balik keje balik.. dapat gaji bayar bill habis.. then the routine starts all over again .. sigh..boring seh ..
Wistful for Love
10:49 PM
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Ooohhhh .. I survived!! I managed the whole of last week .. And without any help from anyone!! Even when I was so sick I asked for help from my superiors, they ignored me and said they were too busy to help me.. yet when I finish my work early and about to go home on the dots, they said I should stay back and help them!! A***HOLES!! Keep on dreaming ah .. you can kiss my a**! So hopefully tomorrow my supervisor doesn't take an mc and hopefully she comes back to work ..
I went to the doctor yesterday cos of my numbing headache and stiff neck.. He said I am sufffering from stress and tension. Simple as that! No migraine no pregnancy woes.. Sigh he told me to relax more.. me?? relax??? Hahahahah I was laffing at that and he looked at me queerly like I needed to be admitted to Woodbridge seh..
I haven't been able to sleep well the past week .. I hope I can sleep peacefully tonite.. for now, I think I just wanna lie down next to Apit , hug him close and fall asleep... hmmm mebbe a cup of hot Milo would help me better..
Wistful for Love
11:09 PM
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Well..well.well..what a turn of events today...At work I managed to finish my work early and fast ..Hopefully I didn't forget to do an important shipment else I'll get it from the management again ...I spoke to my Mgr and he has given me hope that I might last just a lil longer .. I am just hoping it'll last till I give birth next year.
And I met up with my good frens and ex schoolmates,
Yanni, Ida,Zu and Lin. It was a nite of food, laughter and surprises. Yes surprises mainly for me!I guess I must have done something so very rite in my life to deserve such frens like u girls..
Thank you girls for your gift. I am so very touched and have managed to hold back my tears but now as I am penning down my appreciation, my tears are flowing freely. This must be the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me..You girls made my day! You gave me hope at a moment when I am so down and pondering ridiculous thoughts..I can't even begin to tell how much it means to me..Knowing that you are not any better off than me makes this even more meaningful for me and makes me more appreciative of what you have done. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, from the Lil one especially, Thank you very much.
Wistful for Love
10:42 PM
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Sigh.. things are just not going well for me rite now...
Its a long story but to summarize it;
1. I might be getting the sack
2. While waiting to be sacked I have to slave at work for a week to cover for 2 staff down
3. The house might be in total darkness soon
4. Mum might not get her dialysis solution this mth ..hence bigger possibilities of being hospitalized..
5. I might not be able to go for my first check up therefore, haf to wait longer to "meet" the lil one.
If all of the above doesn't make me depressed, you tell me wat will? Sigh when will I strike the lottery? All my problems would be solved then.. Eh but to strike you first need to buy the ticket rite? And I dun even gamble.. can't even spare a dollar for a ticket ..sigh..How much more pathetic can my life be?
Wistful for Love
11:48 PM
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