Out of sight,out of mind... Well that what I've always tot.. If I dun see that person or those people often enuff, we'll soon forget about each other, seeing taht each of us are busy with our own commitments and wat nots..
Morever, I've always been and have always felt like an outcast just becos I dun enjoy the same things they do or can afford the same things they can or even experienced the same things they did.But I've always shamelessly tagged along only to let myself be put down further...
Ok lah .. I've had it. No more terhegeh hegeh ...If you feel like meeting me,call me up .. Dun give me lame excuses ok? I've swallowed my pride long enuff ..I tried to be myself but I guess that is not good enuff for you. Benn used enuff thou.. My mum always told me, "kau tu jek yang tak malu terhegeh hegeh kat orang...Orang bila perlu jek carik kau.. bila kau yang dalam keperluan saper yang tolong?"
Well, there is some truth in wat she said. I've always gone out of my way to try and help and do my best for others but when in comes to my turn, everyone suddenly has something on .. well ok lah...dah seasoned pun ...
Yet, my obstinancy just can't seem to overcome my softheartedness and my tak sampai hati motto.. I've always tot "Ni hari orang mebbe lain hari, hari aku?" Yet I always console myself that way and end up dissapointed. And those people keep popping up now and then just to ensure their existance has not waned from my life.
I dunno.. I just dunno.. I dunno if I can make myself turn into someone I am not. Wat good has being good done for me? I end up bringing more problems to myself..Oh dear, the raging hormones within me makes me go on an emotional roller coaster. I can't sleep well at nite even tho I am only in my first trimester. Each time I close my eyes, I have a bad dream. I end up getting cranky and tired. Gosh .. 7 more months to go!! ArghhhH!!
Wistful for Love
6:25 PM
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