~Weekend Updates~Hmmm penat sungguh ....Sat I had to work .. Afterwhich, I went home, rested for a while before heading out to Twinkz's wedding dinner.Afterwhich, went to fetch Apit at his Nyai's place....
Sunday did nothing much.. had a DVD marathon with Apit while hubby works the morning shift... In the evening, waited for hubby to come home then we took Apit to the pasar malam.. boring seh pasar malam ..same ole things...
Later that nite, my mum came to me and grumbled at how my MIL and her god mum called her from Saturday and bragged about how they celebrate Mother's Day.Their children took them out for dinner at Gurame, went out in the car for Kai Kai and went shopping... She sounded sad...Sigh I just dun understand, why must people brag??? I mean if you really need to show off or brag, please do it to those who are on par with you, not people like me and my mum who obviously won't be able to compete with you... I know u crave for the envious oohhhsss and ahhsss from the underpriviledged such as me and my mum but hey!! So wat??You need our envy in order to feel good about yourselves, we don't! We feel good just by being able to be with each other each day ...
I told mum not to care about others..cos they are not the ones who help us when our electricity gets cut off or when we have no money to buy food.. Why must u compare us with them? You know our status dun you??
I told her to be grateful... Just be grateful that we have a roof over our heads and enuff food on the table each day... For her, be grateful for each sunrise and sunset that she sees every day,for each day that she gets to kiss n hug her precious grandson, for each morning tat she wakes up to.. My mum has kidney failure u see and has to undergo Dialysis 4 times each day at home.. so she has to go thru a lot..
My Mother's day gift is tat I am well each day enuff to see my mum still strong and loves my son so much ... I told my mum that my mother's day gift to you is each day that I pray for her wellbeing and that for her to know that I love her so much ... for all that she has done for me from birth till I am a mother myself. Even now, she pampers me and does so many things for me...All the sacrifices that she has to make for the family.. all that she has to suffer by staying wif me..
I told her am so sorry that I am not able to give you the luxurious life you should be living in your old age.. I am sorry mak for all that I've done to make you angry for hurting you, for shouting at you when I am in a bad mood .. for all that I've done,I am so sorry and I love you so very much ...and Thank you Mak...
Wistful for Love
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