v o g u e ; unabated

~Wat telah happened?~

Hmm suddenly I felt so drained of all my energy and my eyes drooped like I can fall asleep anytime...hmm becos Japan is having their holidays, shipments trinkle slowly like drops of water from a dripping tap.And my mind starts to wander here and there.. thinking of certain things in my life ...

The past few days made me ponder... Life, what exactly is life? Life as I know is full of hardship and obstacles that test me daily ... Life as others might know it is beautiful and full of happiness and zest .. Life as some others might know it might be meaningless.Hmmm to each his own lah eh...

The bitches that I've met, the beautiful people who became my good frens.. the ugly human being...the different characteristics in people.. the different lives that we lead...some good some bad..

Makes me wonder sometimes why He writes my life this way? Why not that way? Why not like her or like him???Looking back, the current life I am leading is not the one that I want or dreamt of when I was younger.. I guess this is God's will.If He gives me a harder life than my peers, then mebbe it's to test my faith and my strength.And mebbe due to that, I am as strong as I am now. Cos sometimes I do wonder how the hell did I go thru my life ??

Envy?? Sure I envy some of the lives my peers have. Sometimes I even feel hatred. Wat to do? I am, as far as I know, only human. And its only human to have these feelings. And yes, I have been guilty of maligning a fren before becos of my jealousy but that was the one and only time I swear! Even then I still feel guilty till date.

But my point is now matter what life throws at me, I am grateful. Cos my philosophy is, no matter how hard you think your life is, there are others out there going thru a more difficult life.

Wistful for Love
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