Sigh ..guess it has been a hectic week for almost everyone I know. I am going thru some personal thingies that I guess I would have to settle myself. So mebbe like some of my good frens .. I too would be going on a short hiatus … I will be visiting your blogs tho..Just dun feel like blogging myself nowadays…
Just when I tot life was gonna get a lil easier for me, life turns arounds and throws another punch at me. I dun know how much more I am able to take. My patience has a limit ..Is it too much just to ask that you respect me? How am I gonna respect you then? Anyway, I am just too tired to think and strain my brains anymore.. For now, I am just gonna ignore the problem till it really hits me in the face. I am so sick of always being the one to try and avoid the problems and always the one who has to face the humiliation of it all … I seriously need a rest ..
Wistful for Love
10:56 AM
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Tiredddddddd!! That bitch took leave at the last minute to spite me!! Even my senior asst mgr was pissed off with her becos she overwrote him and didn't let him sign her leave form.. humphhh when she knew we will be shorthanded today...But in a way,it showed me a new guy's other side.. no matter how I put him down, he's never loses his temper,(not yet anyways heheh) and always try to help me whenever he can.. But the thing is, there's a chinese saying,"Yue pang, yue mang!" heheh the more he help, the busier I become.. cos being the blurheaded gundu he is, he always makes silly mistakes and I always end up scolding him instead of thanking him .. poor guy hehe..I tell you the 2 new guys are so sweet ...tho I can't stand the sight of one of them hehe his face just irritates me..
So rushed thru my work and hers!!! managed to finish by 1730 and tumpanged my colleague to Bedok MRT where I took a train all the way down to Outram and walked up the hill to blok 4 .. sigh with my growling tummy that I had failed to fill it up today due to the heavy workload..so in less than 10 mins I sat down with my mum, I rushed down to the foodcourt .. And I had to tell you, I had the most delicious meal of Chicken Briyani!! Powerrrrrr gedemakkk..Masing ku Terasa seh ...
And now I am just at home , watching my weekly dose of the OC and One Tree hill.. I lurve my Wednesdays but I dun hate my Thursdays either!!**winks at Ms Dynamite**Oh by the way, I'll be fetching Apit from his Nyia's place tomorrow.. He has been there since Mum got admitted.. Man I missed him so muchh!! Can't wait to see him and hug him and kiss him till he wails!! Oooohhhh yippeeee!!
Wistful for Love
11:45 PM
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sighh .took urgent leave today.. couldn't wake up cos I was too tired... woke up at 9.30am!! Iskk imagine that ..
Met wth Zu to go to Funan at 2pm.. cos I needed to collect from freebies there and today was the last day of collection... afterwhich we had Banana Leaf curry rice... Power kedemak!!! Very nice fish curry I tell ya...Then we walked around for a while and then off to the hospital I went to visit my mum while Zu meets up with her hubby..made plans to meet up later ard 8pm..
Mum was happy cos the doc told her she might be able to go home tomorrow if her K+ level was ok tonite.. Yet the nurse came and said sorry , still rather low .. must be on drip again tonite.. so possibility of going home tomorrow?? very slim .. poor mum, her face dropped terribly.. apa nak buat mak?? better stay and get well properly rather than risk hurting yourself at home mah ..So I did her dialysis cycle for her cos her hand can't be moved cos of the drip..
There was her wardmate a lady name Azila or something like that .. she looked rather young .. mebbe ard early 30s??She had been on Haemo Dialysis for 13 years!! Gosh ,... imagine that .. yet she still got married and had kids.. I saw her two daughters just now.. they were so cute and clever...She's a strong lady I tell ya... She told me Sickness is like death, no matter how you avoid it, if God choses for you to get sick, you will.The sickness you get will either break you or make you.. I guess it made her..I admire her strongwill ...
Hubby kept smsing me and calling asking when I'll be home.. hmm he was hungry and there was nothing to eat ...So I had to cancel my date with Zu and the girls and rush home to cook.. wasn't in the mood to cook anything major so I just cooked his fave dishes.. fried noodles and fishball soup.. hehe lucky for me he not choosy..
Now, I am just tired and sleepy.. just need to sleep else I'd miss work again tomolo.. hmmm Charmed will be back next Wed!! Yipppeee .. told you before, I love Wednesdays...
Wistful for Love
11:59 PM
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gosh.. wat a way to start the week.. first work was like hell!! That darned woman so clever.. go and arrange 2 meetings for herself so she dun hafta come back to office.. humpphh ... me was like struggling like hell no one come and even bother to ask whether I can cope or do you need help nanie?? not a single soul...menambahkan keje aku adalah..tau nk tolak jek .. the other jerk even better, buat bodoh like I dun exist then at 6pm when I was almost finished with the hassles baru nak tanya," Eh u ok?? Can cope?? Need help" I just told him to f*** off lah .. It would have been nice if you had asked me tat question a few hours earlier..
Not enuff I had loads of work to do , SGH's CAPD nurse called and asked I bring my mum immediately to be admitted....After her blood test at Sengkang poly this morning, they found that her K+ is too low yet again!! This time it's dangerously low.. Heart can stop pumping any time ... sigh ..So I had to rush home after work which was at 7pm fetch my mum and send her to SGH.. we reached the A&E ard 8.30pm..got her settled down only at 1130pm ..so here I am just washed up and oh so tired ... hmm lucky I had alreqady warned my Asst mgr that I might be taking urgent leave tomolo since he saw the admission form the nurse faxed to me .. The last time this happened, I reached home at 5am in the morning and still went to work..yet that a**hole owuldn't let me take urgent leave..sigh did I suffer then...
Oh well, sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga.. hmm brings back a nostalgic scene when I used to be so poor and had no electricity and only lit candles dangerously placed around the house... with only the light from the main corridor to help us see.. poor kids, they have never experienced this before.. especially Baby Firman .. he was crying and wailing as he was scared of the dark and was very hot.. his whole body was wet with sweat.. so was Apit.. my poor darlingsss.. sigh .. be strong my dears, tomorrow would be a better day... I hope...for now, i just need my sleep.. i am so very very tired...
Wistful for Love
12:14 AM
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Today I woke up early even tho I slept very very late last nite.. I was trying to finish watching the whole season of Tru Calling.. Elisha Dushku rockssss!! Ohhh that Jason Priestly is fat now! Not as hot as when he was in 90210.. the hottest show when I was in Sec school..but he still has those beautiful blues eyes to die for..Guess his terrible race car accident didn't really affect him much.. even tho I saw in a show how bad he was injured and how long he took to recover..
Aniwaes, I woke up at 7am today can u believe it?? Off to the market I went.. hmm haven't really been to the market for some time now heheh Mum's always the one cooking BUT.... its hubby's berthday today so I tot I'd cook something special.. hmmm wat shall I cook?? I dun minat cooking u know so my masterpieces are few..Usually if I cook, it's just fried vege, steamed fish, sotong hitam, sardine and other simple dishes...
SO, since its a special occasion, I decided to cook Chilli Crabs, kang kong blacan,black pepper beef and milo cupcakes.. heheh Tot I'd have my work cut out for me but then hey the dishes were rather easy..I finish all 3 dishes and the cupcakes in 2 hours.. record time for me..after that I relaxed and watched Police academy.. classic seh tu show...
Aniwaes, it was a succes especially my Chili Crabs and milo cupcakes. even got MIL's thumb up.. for married ladies you know wat i mean heheh..So all in all, I had a great and proud day hehehe ..tomorrow's another day for me to relax...
To hubby, happy birthday dear. No matter wat we went thru or will go thru or how bad your mood is, u know i love u.. I know I dun say it often enuff cos u know I am not the mushy mushy lovey dovey type dear but do know that I love you. InsyAllah wateva we face, we face it together.. if not for our future, for our son's future then...
Wistful for Love
6:58 PM
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~Stagnant day~Wednesday’s always been my fave day of the week..cos I have gotten over the first two lazy days when I am so lazy to go to work…After Wed, come sthe next 2 days where work keeps me so occupied, I do not have time to be lazy..Afterwhich comes the weekends.. 2 days of rest and relax at home with my darlings,namely hubby and Apit of cos.. BUT! That is not the point of my entry today..
Yesterday I dreamt of my late Abah. No .. no.. nothing scary.. In the dream, I saw Abah and me during various stages during his lifetime… When I was young always lazing on the antique sofa, he would always come home and tease me making me scream and shout and run to Mak and complain..Mak tengok ah Abah!! Balik jek nyakat orang!! Buncit!! Botak!! And Abah would always give Mak and me his mischievious grin and chuckle.
My Abah looked like a typical Indian Muslim with dark skinned, pot bellied and moustache. He looked really really fierce.. but underneath tat fierce outlook he was a loving husband and father who loved teasing lil kids and making them cry.. after making them cry he will chuckle to himself and give them sweets heheheh My cousins used to run and hide when they saw my Abah coming..Abah will chase after them grab them and make them cry hehehe I am laffing just picturing the scene again..
When we are in the van, he will wink at Mak and whistle at the ladies passing by .. Then he will tease Mak and say Wah! Tu cantik tu kalau buat bini no 3 power! And Mak, accustomed to his teasing ways will either just ignore or scold him, No shame ah?? Belly so big,worst than pregnant woman, who wants you?? Stupid woman like me only hehehe And Abah will chuckle and say Eh, chinese call this belly vely prospelous you know!!
Later I grew older and was in poly, I was old enuff to haf my own licence.Abah had wanted to sponsor me a driving licence but being the young girl I was then, it did not make much sense for me to have one since we were not able to afford a car.Actually I just did not wanna drive Abah's Mazda Bongo which was even older than I was then..It made more sense to haf a riding licence cos a bike was more affordable for him to buy for me ..heheheh ..otak mau pandai tau mau hidup hehe He must have been rather disappointed when I gave up my riding lessons when I met hubby who had a Fireblade and was then most willing to be my dispatch..Maklumlah baru baru fall in lap so buat apa sume sanggup heheh
When I started working and had to do the permanent nite shift, Abah sent me to work everyday in his taxi and during those drives to work that we caught up with each others day.. He told me wat problems he was facing, wat kinda passengers he had and in turn I would ask him questions on life and make him tell me stories and anecdotes of his life. I really treasured those times..
2nd December 1999, Abah was admitted to CGH after he passed out in his taxi while waiting for passengers at Changi Airport. I rushed to the hospital and he seemed fine although a lil tired.The next day, I took leave to accompany him and Mak at the hospital the whole day. He was hungry he said and so thirsty as the staff told him he supposed to undergo a scan or something. I asked the nurse and she said Oh, can drink oredi all test completed. Cannot eat only ok? Hmm wonder what they have been doing all these while?So gave Abah a drink of plain water and he fell asleep…
I was with him the whole day, chitchatting and joking with him. At around 6pm, he started looking up and havings fits,I shouted for the doctor and nurses .. but no one came.He was clenching his teeth and was starting to bite his tongue… I put a towel in his mouth and ran to the nurse station crying.. Please come ! My father is having fits..You wanna know wat the nurse said? Aiyah! All staff busy attending to other patients lah! I was so mad I shouted at the top of my voice! THIS IS AN EMERGENCY!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT FITS ARE????She turned pale and ran to look for a doctor..
One of my brothers came and told me and hubby, then my fiancé, to go and look for my sister who was not at her house and did not carry a pager or handphone. I went to her house to ask her maid where she went but the maid had no idea..
As I was going down the stairs, my HP rang. It was my 3rd brother telling me that Abah is gone forever! I wailed out loud and suddenly felt weak.. I slumped down the steps and cried my heart out.. Why are you wailing asked my brother? How can that change anything? At that point I did not care where I was or if the neighbours heard. I was crying for my Abah…
I felt that it was not fair that I did not get to see him fior the final time and ask for his forgiveness.. I spent the whole day with him but I did not do it… Why? Cos I just did not expect to lose him so fast! I was really badly affected by his demise.. I cried and did not sleep for days.. I would talk to myself and had illusions of him talking to me …my closest kins tot I was going crazy..
I slowly came to terms with his demise.. I tot at least I spent quality time with Abah especially during his last few days alive.. Unlike my brothers and sister who barely made time to see him… My only regret was not being able to ask him for his forgiveness …Till now, I cry at times when I suddenly think of him .. Or as I look at my family potrait on my office table, tears start rolling down my cheeks and I quickly brush them away,afraid my colleagues would see…My thoughts of him are so fresh .. Mak teaches Apit who his Atuk was .. Always showing Apit his Atuk Ayips photo.. When asked wat si Atuks name? Apit replies, Atuk Ayip!
I just pray for him to be amongst those protected by Allah and may he rest in Peace.
Mohd Sharif Bin Mohd Ali, Semoga roh mu dicucuri rahmat dan semoga kamu diletakkan dia antara mereka mereka yg dikasihi Nya.
~Al-Fateha~.
Wistful for Love
4:51 PM
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~Contented~Hmm Alhamdullilah today I feel so surprising contented. Dun ask me why cos I am wondering myself hehehe..Cos when I woke up this morning I was so groggy and sleepy I fell asleep immediately when I sat down in the bus.. Thanks to hubby who got me hooked on Halo2 till 2am! When I finally got stuck trying to cut the station cables,killing of the jackals and brutes, I gave up and hubby continued..Lucky I was not late again for work today and the workload today is rather light ..
As I was groggily going thru my paperwork, Mum called me and said "Eh your son keeps pestering me to call you, he wanna talk to you." so half an hour went by with Apit chattering on the other end of the line;
Apit:Ibu, Apit nak gi olah(skolah), Api dah pandai,Apit pakai Bweeeff(Briefs), Apit tak nak pakai pampers(he's toilet training u see),Ibu kat bawah ada paygwound(playground), Apit nak gi paygwound, pawgwound bawah dirty ah Ibu, ada dogs..nanti dogs gaduh dog bising... Ibu, Apit nak alan(jalan), Ibu tak ajak Apit alan?
Me:"Ok ok nanti Ibu balik work Ibu ajak Apit gi playground ok dear? Now Ibu nak work Ibu busy.."
Apit:Tak nak! Apit nak akap ngan Ibu...
Me:"Well, Ibu busy darling go kejut Ayah ajak Ayah main peter(Computer) ok?"
Apit:Ayah work lah Ibu... (hehehe cekik darah lah budak ni eh??)
Me:No lah Ayah sleep.. gi kejut Ayah ok??
Apit:OK Ibu... (So it ends with)See you later Ibu, take care Ibu... love you Ibu...byeeee"
Now tell me if that doesn't add to my contentment and make my day?? hehehe lalalalallala
Wistful for Love
12:50 PM
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~Wi fi in progress!!!~Yiippee... thanks to McD's free wi fi.. so it only means my wi fi is working.. only not accessible at home.. hmm looks like I gotto set up my own wi fi at home lah .. takpelah pelan pelan ....
Here I am waiting for time as my drebar aka freon is on her way to come fetch me afterwhich we gonna go fetch lilac and go for coffee or dinner.... heheh mampos aku kalau dia baca nanti...Jupsssss aku happy gila ni ...
But, hmmmm at home cannot get .. so unlucky ah?? sighhh ..defits the purpose of wanting to surf anywhere in the house lah like that so that I dun have to fight with hubby over the pc... nevermind lah .. like i said, pelan pelan ...
hmmm I look back at the past 5 months and realized that I've achieved most of wat I aimed to do this half of the year.. bought some items I've been wanting to buy, settled nsome of my major debts ...InsyAllah I will achieve wateva I deem to do by end of this year and who knows?? By next year, you might be able to see a more cheerful me?? InsyAllah.. pray for me dear frens ya??Lurve you peeps..
Wistful for Love
6:37 PM
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~Darn it!~Bingit kan?? Just cant get the Wifi to work and my head is going crazy oredi!!Humphh so darn fed up... Wats the point of purchasing it if I can't get wifi??whilst freon's happily surfing away at the exact same location, here I am still struggling and pulling at my hair...
Eh wats that I see?? Ahhh i see a possible connection...Connect anyway..laalalla.. shit!!Aquiring IP address lama nah?? in the end, no wifi ... arghhhhhh frust menonggeng aku!! dah seminggu ni!!
Man.. I guess no choice lah, I hafta to take leave and send it to the manufacturer to check it out... Bingitssss..leave left with 5 days.. worth it to sacrifice a day just to send it for repairs?nanti kena lagik ngan pompuan tu kat keje.. hmmmm Keng mc pon baik eh?? hehehehe mebbe ?? just mebbe??
Wistful for Love
11:39 PM
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~Who?? Me??~Being me, I seldom hate people to the core.I can count with my fingers how many.I tot she's gone.. out of sight, out of mind.. Thanks to blogging, I never fail to read about hear her name crop up occasionally since some of the "frens" she has are such nice people and I like to read their blogs..
I dun care to read about her or even see her face... It brings up a certain yucky feeling in me that I dun have for other people no matter how much I hate them. Hmm kinda reminds me of
Trina's entry on the frogs.I wanna puke especially when I see her face... I had tot I would have gotten over it.. But when I came across her blog and saw her face again, I realized the hatred is still there.. Oh dear, since I am not the grudging type, I wasn't really prepared to face this hatred...man...
Oh no dearie, please dun flatter yourself and think that I am envious of you.. far from it ..I dun care to have what you have.. A bad reputation, a superficial life, a front put in in the blogging world furnished with pictures so as to show the world how good you are...how sweet and pretty you are.. you defend yourself by actually ignoring wat facts people says about you..How pretentious .. I dun care how many guys you have slept with or how hard you party .. why?? Cos these are the meaningless things only someone like you would crave for ...One who dun actually have any frens and whose life is so boring and meaningless ..
What is the purpose of my entry then you may ask?? Oh well, didn't you read my disclaimer?Just felt like filling up today's entry ..Dun read too deep into it girl, you are, after all, rather or should I say very shallow... La la laaa..
Wistful for Love
11:52 AM
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~Badly in need of TLC~How many years has it been since I last saw it? Lets see now, Abah has passed for 6 years now and before that I didn't go there for at least 2-3 years.. so a total of roughly 8-9years?? The poor dear is so dilapidated, it's a far cry from the once handsome and most majestic house on the block ..
Now the roof is caving in, the wooden parts are falling apart due to termites..The main door is in danger of crashing down as it has been hacked so many times due to the blardy thieves tat keep on stealing from the house.. It's badly in need of restoration...
It pains me so much to see the the fruit of Abah n Mak's sweat and hard work disintergrate till such a state... from just a piece of land full of forestry, Abah cut down the trees and built up a wooden house.. throughout the years he slowly changed the wood to stone... upon completion, it became the grandest house on the block ...With stone fencing around the ground's perimeter with a grand gate to match and lights all around... now the lights have all been stolen, the gate my eldest bro crashed it down when he drove a lorry thru it and never even bother to repair..
From getting water from the well,using light from the kerosene pumped lamp and electricity from the neighbours generator to piped running water and electricity from the electric company. It would have maintain its majestic state if only the asses who rented and stayed in it would have taken better care of it!!!And the big jerk namely my eldest bro who dun give a damn about it...
I remember the weekly BBQs we had.. the makeshift tent me and my younger bro made and slept in outside in the garden after a campfire of cos.. the many fireworks we played during Ramadhan...the heavenly relaxing lazing in the sofas on the verandah with a cup of hot coffee-o with hot tasty goreng pisangs dipped in kicap lada padi ...heaven I tell ya..The occasional visit to the nearby lake for a dip in the cool waters or the trips to the end of the road where we get to see the sea and Senoko's 3 towers where we would fish and come back with baskets full of fishes and crabs... the daily bath with water from the well, water so cool and refreshing.. wake to mornings of dew and cool sight..Sigh.. those were really the dayssssss...
I've checked it out.. At least RM15k is needed for me to restore it to it's former glory or a lil more majestic... mana gue nak cekau seh .. but if I dun, no one will want to rent it anymore ..sigh ...I've made enquiries there, I can get a bank loan using my bro's name but I dun know if I should venture into it seeing I am barely surviving here in SG.. But on the other hand, I really can't bear to see it crumble down to dust ...
Ya Allah .. The dilemma I am in now...yet another obstacle for me to face...God show me the way pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Wistful for Love
12:23 PM
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~Weekend Updates~Hmmm penat sungguh ....Sat I had to work .. Afterwhich, I went home, rested for a while before heading out to Twinkz's wedding dinner.Afterwhich, went to fetch Apit at his Nyai's place....
Sunday did nothing much.. had a DVD marathon with Apit while hubby works the morning shift... In the evening, waited for hubby to come home then we took Apit to the pasar malam.. boring seh pasar malam ..same ole things...
Later that nite, my mum came to me and grumbled at how my MIL and her god mum called her from Saturday and bragged about how they celebrate Mother's Day.Their children took them out for dinner at Gurame, went out in the car for Kai Kai and went shopping... She sounded sad...Sigh I just dun understand, why must people brag??? I mean if you really need to show off or brag, please do it to those who are on par with you, not people like me and my mum who obviously won't be able to compete with you... I know u crave for the envious oohhhsss and ahhsss from the underpriviledged such as me and my mum but hey!! So wat??You need our envy in order to feel good about yourselves, we don't! We feel good just by being able to be with each other each day ...
I told mum not to care about others..cos they are not the ones who help us when our electricity gets cut off or when we have no money to buy food.. Why must u compare us with them? You know our status dun you??
I told her to be grateful... Just be grateful that we have a roof over our heads and enuff food on the table each day... For her, be grateful for each sunrise and sunset that she sees every day,for each day that she gets to kiss n hug her precious grandson, for each morning tat she wakes up to.. My mum has kidney failure u see and has to undergo Dialysis 4 times each day at home.. so she has to go thru a lot..
My Mother's day gift is tat I am well each day enuff to see my mum still strong and loves my son so much ... I told my mum that my mother's day gift to you is each day that I pray for her wellbeing and that for her to know that I love her so much ... for all that she has done for me from birth till I am a mother myself. Even now, she pampers me and does so many things for me...All the sacrifices that she has to make for the family.. all that she has to suffer by staying wif me..
I told her am so sorry that I am not able to give you the luxurious life you should be living in your old age.. I am sorry mak for all that I've done to make you angry for hurting you, for shouting at you when I am in a bad mood .. for all that I've done,I am so sorry and I love you so very much ...and Thank you Mak...
Wistful for Love
12:07 PM
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~Wat telah happened?~Hmm suddenly I felt so drained of all my energy and my eyes drooped like I can fall asleep anytime...hmm becos Japan is having their holidays, shipments trinkle slowly like drops of water from a dripping tap.And my mind starts to wander here and there.. thinking of certain things in my life ...
The past few days made me ponder... Life, what exactly is life? Life as I know is full of hardship and obstacles that test me daily ... Life as others might know it is beautiful and full of happiness and zest .. Life as some others might know it might be meaningless.Hmmm to each his own lah eh...
The bitches that I've met, the beautiful people who became my good frens.. the ugly human being...the different characteristics in people.. the different lives that we lead...some good some bad..
Makes me wonder sometimes why He writes my life this way? Why not that way? Why not like her or like him???Looking back, the current life I am leading is not the one that I want or dreamt of when I was younger.. I guess this is God's will.If He gives me a harder life than my peers, then mebbe it's to test my faith and my strength.And mebbe due to that, I am as strong as I am now. Cos sometimes I do wonder how the hell did I go thru my life ??
Envy?? Sure I envy some of the lives my peers have. Sometimes I even feel hatred. Wat to do? I am, as far as I know, only human. And its only human to have these feelings. And yes, I have been guilty of maligning a fren before becos of my jealousy but that was the one and only time I swear! Even then I still feel guilty till date.
But my point is now matter what life throws at me, I am grateful. Cos my philosophy is, no matter how hard you think your life is, there are others out there going thru a more difficult life.
Wistful for Love
3:05 PM
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~Miss Scrooogee!!~You are a bitter resentful miser who dun have any frens..I used to think tat I could still be your fren but now that you have played me out and shown me your true selfish self, I'd rather keep my distance from you.You've stabbed me in the back pretending to be good but in fact you a re a wolf in sheep's clothings..(which reminds me of yesterday CSI's episode plak hehehe)
Wat a bitter bitch you are... wat a lonely life you lead? poor you.. monetarily rich but so poor in actual life.. Yes you look down on me ..But hey money's not everything to me you know!A dog may be a man's best fren but wat they bring can't compare to the joys a child can bring into your life... So many people out there trying so ahrd to have a kid but u say no to kids even before u are married?? My goodness.. how much you must be lacking in life?? Hmm I wonder wat would have happened if your mum had decided not to have kids when she got married?? Simple logic?? You won't even exist!!Which might have made this world a better place!!!
You are being so miserable becos of wat you went thru .. reason being to each his own?? I went thru a hard life too but I am so glad I didn't turn out like you! I have scores of frens whom I love dearly.. family members who are monetarily poor yet rich in love ...I wonder how bitter your life must be when you are so calculative even with your own life partner? Gosh! Must it come down to every single cent??
Bleh mati seh hidup camni...bila nak rasa aman and contented eh?? Well like they say, hair same black but heart different different eh? hehehe aniwaes, I tried being nice but you turned out to be a selfish bitch who dun care about anyone but herself so there!! Lain kali kau nak gi class, kau bleh buat sendiri keje kau sampai habis!! Aku tak nak tolong! Lain kali kau nak gi leave, jgn nak tukar ngan aku duty week tau!! pakkal jek kena duduk sebelah kau tau, kalau tak muka ngan gigi gigi kau sekali aku tak nak pandang!!! arghh!! geram!!
Wistful for Love
1:25 PM
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~Goodbye Mr Wee~Yesterday morning 5am marks the demise of our ex President, Mr Wee Kim Wee. Of all Presidents, I find myself rather attached to him. Dunno why? Mebbe becos he looked like my late paternal Grandpa whom I was very close with.He also seems like a friendly, approchable type. Always smiling and looked like a doting Grandpa..
and he did many voluntary work.. Sigh I dunno why I feel so sad? I am normally not so patriotic u know hehehe...
Sigh it was a longgggg weekend for some but for me, I dun feel it at all.Was working on Sat.While my other colleagues went home early, I had to do my Supervisors work too cos she took leave.. sigh ... Then Sunday and Monday I had invites..Weddings and cukur rambut and open houses... Sigh, I'd like to rest but obliged to go to these invites.Especially june or other school holidays, sure many many more invites uwahhh!!
Hmm as for work, sigh! Got rid of one now comes another... I guess thats working life for you... Aiyah buat bodoh jek lah..as long as aI do my work dun disturb people, dun need to care about others..
Wistful for Love
12:32 PM
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