~Thats It!!~Woo Hoo!! I just bought my dream car! Mazda2!!! woo hoo!! happy nak mampos!! Actually not me yg beli lah, won it in a lucky draw.Oh ya,I bought myself several beatiful artifacts to put in my newly purchased Masionette too.Apit is such a darling, behaving well and no tantrums.Guess what?? We are going to have another baby!!! Hubby struck lottery and we paid off all our debts !!!So we shall now be living not in luxury but at least no more worries..Sudah lah tu!! Enuff is enuff!! Lets just leave at that..no point dragging it further.Eversince YOUR arrival, we have been so strained!! Its ok lah .. part of life I guess. I know who I am and where I stand. I can't be on par with YOU.DO What YOU want and what YOU will. I shall pull back and leave YOU alone. It's so sickening to always be the SCUM. Yes I do feel that way! You made me feel that way! I dun want to be any part of it anymore. Hope YOU are happy ..
Yanni said I am cranky today! Menses?? Nope! Selalu aku diam jek.. menangis sendiri.. sentimental?? Wateva you wanna call it ..Wat I wrote are my dreams ..Some of which I might be able to achieve if I persevere and work hard enuf. Some I know I will never achieve..Thats is the story of my life.. I am resigned to it. Does it make me a bitter person? I hope not.. I am just tempremental...Lurve me as I am..I dun hope for much.. I just wanna be happy..is that too much to ask?
For now I am contented if I can just for a holiday even if it for ahort while in Malaysia, rent a car once every few months and drive my family around for Kai Kai,earn a lil more just to pay off debts and bills.. I have been tested a lot through my life.. Mebbe He needs to test me more? So be it... InsyAllah I will be able to get through it ..What dun kill me will only make me stronger true is it not?
For now, just leave me alone will ya? I am sleepy, hungry and tired thus I am cranky!! Just let me be..
Wistful for Love
12:40 PM
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