~So wat??!!!~
So wat if you have more than wat I have?? So wat??!! Do I have to reduce to being a beggar just becos I need a favour from you?? So wat if I need to borrow your car?? So wat if I can't afford to buy my own car??
Do you have to flaunt wat you have? Do you have to look down on me that way?? I didn't even want to borrow your car!! I wanted to rent it!!! I know my own situation!! I know it's your car and its your prerogative!!
Just by looking at me you'll think like "Huh!! She'll never be able to own a car!! Muka nampak sah muka menumpang kreta orang jek!! Harapkan simpati orang!!"
Damn!! Am I tat low to you??? Okay fine!! I'll never ask to borrow or even rent your car anymore!! I know I can't afford to own a car! Not in my current situation anyway.But I will not let you step on me and insult me in such a way!! No way!! I do have my pride you know!!
I've had to thicken my skin so many times to ask for loans from people and in the end, earned myself the looks of disgust from you people!! I know I can't afford to go out everyday and enjoy the company of friends like I want to. Heck I can't even afford to buy myself new clothes!!
I know how you look at me ... pretending to be nice and to be my fren but behind me you talk about me and insult me, calling me names. I heard about wat you did!! Ya rite!! So wat?? At least I dun double cross my frens!! At least I am honest!!
Sigh! Woe is me that have to face such a fate! I accept my fate and constantly set small goals for myslef to achieve. Hey at least I obtain my licence thru my own hard work and my own money! Damn you!! How did you get your licence huh?? Government sponsor per in NS!! Just becos you got picked as a driver!! Mak bapak sponsor??? Lucky you!! Mak bapak belikan kreta??? Senang ah hidup kau!!!
Woe is you who dun have to struggle to own your own things and achievement! Well, for your info, I had to work damn blardy hard to earn myself my first handphone at the age of 20 mind you!!! With my own hard earned money! I forsook many lunches at work to save enough to go for my own Certificates!! It may be small trivial matters to you but they mean the world to me.
Arghhh!! Why do I even care huh?? You are nothing to me!! Next time I'd rather pay more to rent from a rental company rather than from you, you blardy ass!!Oh ya, next time, dun come running to me you need help with anything ok?? I have the skills I own now credits to .. ermm to who huh?? Oh ya!! Myself!!Need to write an official letter?Deal with it yourself!Kau tak pernah gi skolah ke?? Tulis surat pon tak tau! I am sick of being a good samaritan! To you only!!
Wistful for Love
11:12 PM
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