~Insomania~
Here I am at 5am blogging away...sahur?? Nopes..I slept at 10pm and woke up at 1am..have been awake since.If I were to sleep now, I am sure to be late for work!!Arghhhhhhhh!!
So what I been doing??Chatting with hubby and sewing my hall curtains..I have finished almost half of my hall curtains!! I finally managed to get the dimensions rite.Yipppeeee!! Decided to stop sewing when my back started to ache and my eyes were getting more blurred!!
When I have finished my curtains, I have to start on my sofa coverings next..That is more troublesome than curtains which are rather straight forward to sew... I did a set for last year's raya and it came out ok except for the slightly crooked designs..heheh Well not bad considering I didn't have any formal training and only the original covers and curtains as a guide ..Was thinking of sewing my own cushion covers too but decided not to get too ambitious as I won't have the time since I can only sew at nite after Apit has been put to bed..work and housework to be done somemore..Its already the second week of fasting and I doubt I'll be able to complete it in time...So have to make do with wat I can manage ...
Now I am soooooooo sleepyyyy...Yawnssssss
Wistful for Love
5:03 AM
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~Moi Weekend~
I jus lurve it when I haf the Saturdy off. I managed to get so many things done man!I cleared the laundry room, did the laundry,cleaned up the house, played with Apit.Cleared the kitchen and even managed to sew the curtains for all the 3 bedrooms...Thats quite a feat isn't it?? well, for me lah at least hehehehe
Sunday I went to JB with Nuwul Pink!! I wanted to buy Curtain scallops as I was too lazy to sew them. But was too expensive so I gave up the idea and ended up buying clothes for Apit.I bought for him this Samping kain Songket very the cute seh... hehehe can't wait to try it out on him heheh..
Had Tepanyaki for Break Fast.Finally I get to eat Tepanyaki!!! Hubby dun be jeles ok! Next time we go together gether ok!!After eating Nuwul and I shopped for vcds!! Nuwul was hesitant and only bought abt 3. I bought 6! Buy 5 get 1 free mah!!
Human traffic was horrible!!!!Arghhh! I wanted to take a cab home but decided against it coz too lazy to walk all the way back to the taxi stand...
I was detained by Customs at Singapore checkpoint!!!! Nuwul only had her name noted down!! I had to go to the office!! Lucky for me I was released with a warning. When I went out Nuwul was on the hp frantically calling freon!! And tat imp was laffing at me and nuwul!!! At me for obvious reasons lah coz kena detained!! At nuwul coz she was so frantic oredy!! and she even suggested ways to bring in more vcds next time!! Next time??? No way!! kena blacklisted oredy lah!! Uwahhhhh!!!!I should have taken the cab!!
Wistful for Love
1:21 PM
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~St Hildians lil Get together!!~
Met up with about 10 of my fellow St Hildians.Freon,Lilac,Twinks,Ida to name a few. We broke fast at Sakura Far East. After which we went down to Coffee Bean Borders! Had loads of fun laughing and teasing each other.
There was talk about going to Jakarta next January together gether!! Can I go?? Most probably not but boy!! I will try!!! hehehehe It will definitely be fun!!
Fotos?? Have to upload them later peeps coz the camera's on loan to someone... mebbe on saturday nite or sunday then I'll upload them ok?
I got home at 10pm. Spent time playing with Apit and before he fell asleep, Iwas already at dreamland..he fell asleep at midnite with hubby coaxing him.I just woke up and now can't go back to sleep...
Shall I go and start on my curtains??? See how lah!! heheheh ..ada kang sampai ke malam raya aku masih menjahit seh at this rate!!!
Wistful for Love
1:30 AM
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~Slack in blogging~
Is it just me or is it everybody???Becoz of Ramadhan?? Everybody seems to slack in blogging nowadays... busy with terawih after break fast?? Or busy walking around Geylang?? heheheh
For me, everyday I reach home 20mins before break fast and rush to prepare my own break fast meal since mum's not fasting and hubby's always on the afternoon shift. Either that or I rush to buy food for break fast then dun get home in time to break fast, ending up breaking fast in the bus....sigh so hectic rite? I end up losing my appetite to eat at all ...
After eating, I spend my time with Apit.Playing with him, singing and watching tv. By 10pm usually I put Apit to sleep and I eventually fall asleep myself...
Have you noticed??It's a week since we started fasting!!! So fast rite?? Left with 3 more weeks to prepare for Syawal!! Dunno why this year even though I have bought the materials early, I dun haf the mood to get on with sewing my curtains!!! Arghhhh!!!I dun wanna rush like i did last year but, no mood leh!!! Dunno why but this year really no Hari Raya mood!!!
Even on Syawal eve and morning, the Hari Raya shows are not as good as those I saw during my younger times. During the Mat YoYo era!! There's Bobo, handsome Shahrin(at least I tot he was handsome then!!), cute Khairuddin Shasudin, shorty Faisal Ishak, Darling Chacha and also Rilla Melati during their hey days!!! The shows nowadays lasck the enthusiasm and essence of Syawal lah!! Arghhh if I drag this subject then my post will not end!!! Uwahhhh!!!
Wistful for Love
11:38 AM
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~I'm in love!!!~
Arghhhhh!! I have fallen head over heels in love for this car!!!!!
Wistful for Love
1:02 PM
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~My first drive~
Went out for break fast with Freon and Lilac since hubby was working the afternoon shift and mum was not fasting due to health reasons.So Freon fetched me at 5.30pm at the pass office and off we went to geylang. Parked at Onan road and walked all the way to Haig Road, full of confidence there'll be plenty of seats available since it's only the first week of Ramadhan and its a Monday. So we were still taking our own sweet time at 6.30pm. When we reached S-11, whoa the place was packed man!!! There goes our cinfidence and we searched for a place hastily. Lucky got place!!
Then again the queue for drinks was sooo long and I became the target to queue for the drinks ... uwahhhhh ...I had black pepper chix rice,lilac had sambal chiz rice and freon had erm chix meal.. so it was the chix day yesterday!!
Den we went of to shop for..... food!!! Glorious food thats only available during Ramadhan!!! Ramly burger!! Kebabss!! Dendeng!!! yum yum!!!
I shopped for Lap lips!!! Apit would lurve to have lap lips in the house!!!! He'll ask to switch on the lap lips even in day time!!hehehe.
freon let me drive her car!!!! She drove from Geylang to Bedok Reservoir coz I wasn't confident enuff to drive around Geylang! Den I drove from Bedok Reservoir till Punggol!! Thru TPE!!!!! Can you believe it!! well not bad lah for first time driver huh?? Froen was guding me all the way of coz!! heheh ..Anyway, almost gave them a heart attack when I turned into the carpark too fast!! hehehehe sorry gerls!!!!
Anywaes, thanx juls!!! For "gambling" to let me drive your car!! hehehehe not to bad huh?? so when we going kai kai again??? hahaha
Wistful for Love
11:59 PM
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~Apit's First Haircut!~
I sent Apit for his first haircut today in all of his 2 years of life! Surprisingly, my baby didn't cry. He was so quiet throughout the session..Towards the end, he almost fell asleep. heheh he was nodding off and the barber was laughing at him!!
He looks more like a boy now.With the previous hair, people kept mistaking him for a girl with his curly wurly hair. Now I guess that won't happen anymore. But I miss his curls!!! Uwahhhhh!!!
Nevermind, the hair will grow again...
Wistful for Love
11:59 PM
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~First Ramadhan~
Went out wif the ladies after work yesterday.Just to meet up for dinner. It was rather sullen as problems were heavy in our hearts...
Dear fren,
Fret not. We try to help each other out as much as possible ok? I know you find it hard to cope coz you have never had to go thru such a situation before. Dun worry we have! Mebbe we are not able to help you financially but we definitely will help you as much as we can wherever possible. Three heads are better than one and we will think up of a solution ok?? Just be patient and strong and InsyAllah you will get thru this difficult time like you have before. You have always been a strong person.I know you will get thru this. Patience and perseverance my dear fren!
****On another note, tot I could catch up on my sleep after two days of being unable to. Too bad, I stepped into huge puddles of water the moment I stepped into my house!!Arghhhh!!Apit have been playing with water and my mum didn't notice at all!!! She could have slipped and fell. So I spent the next two hours mopping up the water.Only finished up at midnite!!! I decided there and then I won't wake up for sahur coz I definitelty won't be able to...So before going to bed I drank 1.5ltrs of plain water and fell asleep even before my head hit the pillow!!
Even now my head still feels heavy and I;m gonna take a nap during lunch!! Eyes starting to droop already!
Wistful for Love
11:29 AM
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~My dear lil sister!~
This is dedicated to you, U know who u are...
I'm so overjoyed that I finally passed and can't wait to share it with everyone. I hoped that by doing so, I have not rubbed salt into your wounds. Please feel happy for me and look upon it as a motivation for yourself.
I know how u feel especially with those idiotic men with mouths worse than j@#$% ayam!!! U know how they are like .... I felt guilty and was contemplating about telling you my results coz like I said I didn't want you to feel that I'm gloating over you...I was cursing and swearing in my heart at those two old blardy senile old idiots who were passing snide remarks at you!
I dare say, you were part of the close knit friends around me who motivated me and kept my spirits ups. Ur financial help especially is eternally appreciated. You were always willing to help me and understood my difficulties.
I thank you very much and I'm deeply touched and honoured to have a friend and lil sis like u... you are the sis I never had.
Wistful for Love
10:03 AM
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~My Licence!!! I got it!!!~
I am now officially a Qualified DRIVER!!!With a probation of 12mths of coz!!!!
I'm so filled wth delight and relieve that it's all over now!!!No more lessons to go thru!!yipeeeeee!!!!To think that I had wanted to forgo this test and I was so scared I'd fail, I didn't eat nor sleep the past 2 days... Rite after the test and after my jubilation died down, I suddenly felt ravenous and sooooo sleepy!!
Thanks to everyone who prayed for my success sincerely and gave me their good wishes.
A special shoutout to my MUM!! She who prayed day and nite for me to pass...She was the first person I told the good news to and she cried! I did too! All my hard work and efforts paid off...She is going to make for me pulut kuning and kari with fried kacang buncis and I shall be distributing them at work tomolo! It was my mum's niat should I pass.
People at work used to tease me,"Nanie, when u gonna pass?" well, dudes I HAVE PASSED!!! And the next questions people are asking me now is when I'm gonna buy a car?? Not for a very longgggggg time ...my financial situation is still very weak so mebbe in the next 1-2 years I might be buying one if the situation permits ...
For now, I shall be catching up on my beauty sleep. By the way, Apit's back from his Nyai's place and he down with the flu bug!! My poor baby...
P.S. Thanks to my instructor.I know I made your life hell but hey! It was worth it wasn't it?? Why not since you have $2k of my money already!!!Also to the kind testor, Mr Lim Sie Kiang, U made my day Sir!!
Gosh!!! I sound like I won the Grammy Awards or something!! Heheheh but this is of coz much better than that man!!! Ahakssss
Wistful for Love
10:15 PM
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~Test tomolo!~
Like I said yesterday, today turned out to be just like yesterday.A lil more relaxed I guess...Nothing to do at work!!!!
Now waiting for time to punch my card! Hafta to go for my lesson again! Arghhhhh my TP test is tomorrow.Somehow I dun feel like taking test tomolo.
Feel like giving up but then again when I think of my poor mum who has such high expectations of me, I tell myself I must do my best!!!
Well, we'll wait and see shall we?? Wish me luck peeps!!!!I'm on leave tomoloooo!!!!
Wistful for Love
5:08 PM
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~Story of my Day!!~
Monday!!Today I really felt the Monday blues man!First of all, I woke up early!6am! coz Apit was up at 5am but he went and disturbed Nenek! Then mum called me coz there was something wrong her dialysis session! The dialysis solution won't go into her!! After meddling with the tubes fer a while, the solution finally went in slowly! And I mean veryy slowly! Man! I could have peed faster than tat!
Lied down on my comfy bed again just to cool off for a while with Apit who laid down beside me! We both fell asleep!! Woke up at 8 am!!! Arghhhh!! Had to call my sup to ask for timeoff!!Den hubby came back and since my mum was sick, we decided to send Apit to his Nyai's place.We had promised to aniwaes! She's always complaining she misses Apit! Sigh few more days without Apit at home!! Uwahhhhh!!! The house so quiet now!!My father in law hinted he wanted Apit to stay there for the whole of Ramadhan!! Ohhh tidakkkk!!! Mati gue nanti!!! Gue tak relaaaaaa!!!
Reached work at 10.25am but wasted time looking for my punch card so I ended up LATE! Arghhh they gonna deduct half an hour of my OT! So I complained to my Asst Mgr and he kindly signed my card for 10.30am! hehehe ...
Japan was on holiday today so there's nothing much to do at werk!! Kelly and Agnes tot I was in a bad mood coz they said my face was rather sullen and I was exceptionally quiet! Usually I was the one teasing and disturbing them u see. Well, I was actually rather forlorn looking coz I had a lot on my mind.. Financial problems and also thinking of my poor sick mum at home alone!!
Left work at 5.30pm coz I had my driving lesson at 6pm!! Boy I sucked man!! Too long never practice! 2 more days to my test!! I'd better buck up sia!! Mum is praying so hard I'll pass this time! She standby pulut oredy to cook pulut kuning and kari when I passed!! Darling mum!! Sick yet still thinking about my test!! I love ya mum!!!Oh ya Zam, u promised u'll treat me to dinner if I passed!!! I'll hold you to your words aight!!
Reached home at 9pm! Cooled off for a while before cleaning up mum's room and made her bed! Took my bath and now, here I am blogging away! I'm tired and feel so refreshed after my bath.Think I'll go lie down on my comfy bed and continue my reading.Another lonnggggg day tomorrow.Why do I get the feeling today will be repeated tomorrow?? Sighh. The story of my life!!!
Wistful for Love
10:55 PM
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~F#%*ed Up Saturday!~
While everybody else is out enjoying their Saturdays, here I am slogging at home the whole day! Woke up early this morning to send my mum for her blood test, then off to the market and had to carry loads of groceries by myself.
Then I cleaned up the whole house,did the laundry, entertained Apit's tantrums and what did I get? I get SHOUTED at!! Not once not twice but THREE times mind you!Each time, I held back my tears and walked away.Sometimes I wonder how the the hell I got myself involved with you! All I get is heartaches and problems! I've lost count of the times you made me cry.
I wonder if I made a HUGE mistake! I've asked myself that many many times before and everyday I contemplate walking away from everything! Why do I slog so hard for? Why am I sharing all your responsibilities? Why should I carry your burdens? It ain't part of my life story!
You come running to me when you have a problem and expect me to solve them. You scorn at my ideas to make things better. Whatever I suggest, I only get negativity from you!
I cried so many times today. But you either didn't notice or you chose to turn a blind eye to the hurt you inflicted on me. I wish to God I could turn back time and change the decisions that might have resulted in a different lifestyle for me!
God, give me the strength to carry on with him. I dunno if I can make it through. My only pillar of strength is Apit. Yet, I wonder if his life will be better if I were to embark on the journey that I'm contemplating to take. A journey whose equation doesn't include YOU!
Today, each time I cry, Apit comes to me and looks at me sadly. Then he wipes away my tears and kisses me. I wonder if he has more compassion and appreciation in him for me than you do! Arrrrggghhh!!!!! I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!!!
Wistful for Love
7:47 PM
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~Time flies~
Been idling on my blog huh the past week? Well, not exactly idling coz I was busy at work and at home and also out wif the rascal Freon for late nite suppers! Ju!! Makin debab lah aku ni!! There goes my efforts to lose weight! Flushed down the drain! Next week fasting month already!! ArghhhH!!
One month will sure to pass by very quickly and Syawal will come! I haven't finished sewing my curtains!!! Just finished one panel! ehehe I had intended to start sewing early coz I didn't wanna rush thru it like I did last year! On eve of raya, I was still busy sewing away on my curtains!! ahahah !! Better start soon man!
Ohh here is a pix of Aisyah daughter of Izan and Zul.Very the cute!!
Wistful for Love
11:26 AM
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