v o g u e ; unabated

Back to the past

~Back to the past~

I watched 13 going on 30 over the weekend on the vcd.Its a rather nice story although its has such a bullshit storyline.If wishing dust could help go to any point of time in my life, I would gladly pay any amount of money for it ...

I was watching tv last nite when I suddenly reminiscence about my life.There were so many things I would have changed.But I dun regret making the mistakes I made for I would not have learnt the valuable lessons that I did...

Yet the only major thing I regretted was getting married,not for any others reasons.Dun misunderstand me.I love my son so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. He is my life.he means so much more to me than my own life

The things I regret are not being able to accomplish the many dreams I have about my life.They are simple enough dreams yet so unreachable for me.Now even if I wanna strive towards my dreams, many obstacles stand in my way.

I see people younger than me having what I have always dreamt of. I feel hatred for them sometimes. They are lucky to be born into a family that can afford to give them the pleasures they have now and families who do not have to face the problems I face now.They dun have to go through the obstacles I had to face in my teenage years.I know its unfair for me to judge them that way for I do not actually know what goes on in their lives... indulge me people.. at least I feel a lil better.. well, thats life for ya!

At least I have Afiq. He's my everything. He has just learnt to say "I love you and miss you Mama!" To hear those words before I step outta the house for work just makes my day!!

Wistful for Love
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