~Happy 2nd Birthday Apit!~
Its my darling Apit's 2nd bday today!! We didn't celebrate as big as his first bday but still we went out for dinner as a family together with my in laws.
I can still remember the day he was born!The moment I heard his first cry, my tears rolled down my cheeks. He was so beautiful!! (but then again, which mother doesn't think her child is beautiful huh?) I kissed his cheeks and he stopped crying.I was so amazed at the miracle that came out from me.
Hubby had a taste of being a first time Ayah! He told me he cried when he first carried Apit.U wanna know why? Coz the moment the nurse laid Apit in his arms, Apit stopped crying, opened his eyes and smiled at Ayah! When hubby said the Azan into Apit's ears, Apit was silently listening.
Nobody had to be told tat Apit was borned to me and hubby. They just needed to take one look at him to see the duplicate of my face! The trademark lips!! hehehe
We named him Rafiqin Afiq. Means Honoured Companion, in the hope that you will grow to be our companion throughout our life. I pray that Allah will bless you with good health, a good life and grow up to be a useful person, thoughtful of others, respecting your elders and humility at all times.
I love you sooooo much !!
Wistful for Love
10:20 PM
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~All outz!~
Was busy the whole day at work.The usual Monday after weekend backlog. This week is my details duty week so will be going back raqther late the whole week.Oh well, at least I can catch up on my lagging OT! Ahaks.. Raya coming u know!
Finish work at 6pm and rushed to Changi beach to go jogging as promised with my colleague Agnes. Hmm its my first attempt to exercise after about almost 10 years of no exercise!!! I didn't wanna be too over ambitious. So we decided on our route.I knew if I didn't do warm ups and stretching, I sure would experience cramps.
Wanna know wat happened next?? hahaha I jogged for only 2 minutes the I felt my calf strain.Before I kena cramps I'd better slow down and walked fast. Agnes was very patient and waited for me.. haha I guess it was a good first attempt.so we did fast walking for the whole hour. Glad I finally made the move to exercise.Will be going again this Thursday.
Then at 8pm Ju fteched me and we went around fetching everybody else.First Nuwul Pink at simpang bedok.I took some time to change at the Shell station and freshen up. Then off to pasir ris to fetch Zuraidah.Then to the MRT to fetch DeeDee.Off to Jalan Kayu we went!
We had so much fun chatting and joking around!! We alughed over almost everything!! Jups I haven't had so much fun or went out as much before you came back!! Thanks Pal!!
As for Dee Dee, U have redefined the way I request for Lada Jeruk at food stalls!! "bang, kasi chili hijau yg ada cuka bole?" ahahahaha you are soo funny lah DeeDee!!
Zuraidah and me posing our newly rebonded hair!!
From left: Nuwul pink, Ju and Dee Dee!
Wistful for Love
11:59 PM
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~Rebonding!!!~
Yippeee!! I finally made the move to rebond my hair after contemplating for more than a year!!!! I was accompanied by Lilac.well at least not so boring rite.. but so frustrating coz my hair took so long to rebond!The hairdresser said it was becoz I had very healhy hair ...I guess its becoz I have never permed or rebond my hair before ..I'm usually the wash and wear type of hair person hahahah ..
After all was done, I looked like a typical Chinese sia!!! hahahah well all my fears of rebonding was uncalled for as I really looked nice hahah (Hey! ni bukan masok bakul angkat sendiri tau! Org yg puji! ) ahaks!! shy lah now!!!
Was supposed to rush back and cook coz Ju and a couple of ex schoolmates were supposed to hang around my house .We had planned to jog and play badminton but then they cancel at the last minute!! I was quite angry coz I had fried lotsa chix wings ..lucky I asked not to fry the bee hoon yet.. sigh was very dissapointed that I got bubble coz I had woken up at the crack of dawn to clean up the house and prepare the food..now I'm so tired..I could have slept in on my one off day of the week!! Just my luck!!
Aniwaes, hubby out of the blue asked me to go along wif him to Marina(I think he saw my face was rather frustrated about the cancelled plan).He needed to pay his Citibank instalments... brought Apit along and he was so happy on go on the bus and MRT! Its a personal record sia coz he didn't throw a single tantrum!! Hubby was happy and said that if Apit continued to be so good tempered then we can bring him on bus rides more often hahaha ..
by the time we got home, Apit and me were so shacked,we closed our eyes the minute we hit the pillow. Was about to really doze off when hubby woke me up.. he had fried bee hoon and asked me to eat some.. then i remembered.Ya hor. I only had a burger for breakfast .. not bad lah the bee hoon... cant keep my eyes open any longer and fell asleep before even having a drink after my meal!!
So tat sums up my weekend...
Wistful for Love
11:59 PM
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~Sentosa~
Saturday-The day we decided to bring Apit and my mum to Sentosa for Apit's pre bdae celebrations. We went to have lunch at Geyland Serai first afterwhich we took a cab all the way to Sentosa.
We had already decided that we would only go to the UnderWaterWorld(UWW) and the pink dolphin show coz we knew Apit won't last very long without throwing tantrums.We took the monorail to the UWW.Apit liked the ride and kept still throughout,occasionally pointing out the monorail at boats and the sea.
Then we reached the UWW and spent 2 whole hours there! We were so amazed by the beauty of the Sea.There were DRAGONS!!! Real life dragons!! Not the fire breathing ones of coz!! Underwater dragons that really looked like dragons!! Arghhh!!
Then there were pretty jellyfishes ...so graceful.. I've always admired jellyfishes coz of their gracefulness in the water but also very scared of them hahaha... We saw giant sharks and stingrays as big as a table!!! Apit didn't want to leave the UWW and threw tantrums when we exited...
Next is the pink dolphin show!!!Sooo cuteeee ..and the adult one are so pink!!! HMmmm pink?? not exactly my kinda colour! haha aniwaes we oohed and ahhed at the shows and moves the smart.charming yet shy dolpins made! We took photos wif them but I have yet to scan the potos as my digicam's battery chose to go flat on us the minute we stepped into the lagoon!! Arghh I hafta remind myself to get a spare battery!! fotopages seem to be down when I'm at werk. Mebbe coz of the firewall.. will upload the pics at home later lah ....
Wistful for Love
10:36 PM
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~Qoutes for thought!~
I used to collect quotes from wherever I see them When the inspiration comes, I create my own! No, I'm no master of quotes nor am I a philosopher. Just one who likes writing down what I feel or think at that point of time. I wrote up till 2 books of poems and quotes. Tot I'd share them wif you today .. dun worry not ALL!! You'll be bored to death if I did tat!! Ahaks
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~The only way to make a man trustworthy is to trust him;
and the surest way to make him untrustworthy is to distrust him and show your distrust~
~ Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
~Friendship~
Friendship is never established as an understood relation.
It is a miracle which requires constant proofs.
It is an exercise of the purest imagination and of the rarest faith!!!
By: Henry David Thoreau
It is enough that I am of value to someone today-Hugh Prather
The language of friendship is not words,but meanings-Henry David Thoreau
My Favourite ones!
God gave me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to distinguish the one from the other!
Acceptance of others, their looks, their behaviour, their beliefs, brings you an inner peace and tranquility instead of anger and resentment!
What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters, compared to what lies within us!
Wistful for Love
6:49 PM
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~Thursday's Themes~
Nothing much for today ... wasn't much work either since Japan was on holiday. The three of us, Kelly, Agnes and me fooled around wif the camera and it must be the stress of idling so they started cat fights ahahahah....
Btw, I uploaded the pics from my Malacca getaway all the way to today's event so go ahead!!
Take a peek!
Wistful for Love
1:24 PM
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Wednesday mani!
~Fun midweek!!~
I tot I had to werk till late..been slow on the OT lately!! Boy am I gonna suffer when I get my pay packet end of this month! But then was on MSN and Jups and Trina asked to meet up for dinner!! Ahaks so I rushed through my work and Jups was supposed to fetch me at 5.30pm from the pass office.. I reached at 5.40pm!! Tot she had left me behind man!!But she appeared almost at 6pm!! Lucky sia coz I almost freaked out!!
So we went to my place to fetch my lil APit coz I didnt wanna leave him at home since my mum was not feeling well and moreever after the last outing,I felt kinda guilty!!Then we fetched Trina!!
Off to Compasspoint we went for dinner at Banquet!! Trina was hooked on Apit and likewise, Apit got on well with Trina!! hahha we were all laughing at Apit's antics!!Then to the doctors for a short while but Jups had the Runs so she decided to "deposit" at Trina's place!! We hanged around for a while there before going home!!
And oh Trina's place was nice ..it was kinda messy but acceptable messy u know!! Well the norm career couple messy ..And Whoa!! her house was like the Kaka shop man!! u know kedai mama yg jual kaka and those kinda tidbits!! coz we left her place with armloads of chocolates,magazines, DVDs and canned Milo!! Cartoon ah ko Trina!!Aniwaes, thanks for the stuff..and my Apit had a great time wif ya!!hehe! Here's a peek of Trina's tokens to me!!
Wistful for Love
11:59 PM
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Monday blues
~She's back??~
Tot it would be the norm boring Monday.. but I was wrong!!! It was even more boring coz Japan was on holidays so my colleagues and moi were like hanging around chit chatting.. that was in the morning...
Afternoon was jammed packed with work and I ended up working till 7.30pm. Got home around 8.30pm ..so had to rush and freshen up to meet the ladies for supper coz Trina tagged me to meet up wif Freon who just got back form Melbourne..so I called Lilac and so all of us agreed to meet up..
Trina was fetching me at 9pm so I was really rushing.. I knew Apit would wanna follow me out so I was like telling him "mama go werk ok?" he didn't acknowledge so I knew there was gonna be trouble when I leave the house..Clever boy! he knows I dun go to werk at 9pm!! He didnt wanna salam nor kiss me!! Later hubby told me Apit stood by the door expecting me to open it and take him along!! My poor baby!He cried and threw tantrums coz he wanted to follow me. Trina had also called and said they had been waiting for me for 10 mins downstairs!! I rushed down .. hmmmm no car leh?? I only saw a van.. hmm i waited for another 5-10 mins.. I was was pretty sure the ladies must have the wrong block!!
True enuff!! Weyy I live at 173C lah not 173A!! aparak!! Then we fetched Lilac at P.R. then off to E.C food centre.. had fun chatting and kutuking each other .. kecohrable la dey ... haha left at around midnite ...Trina sent me home since we lived so near each other..
Hey gerls I really had so much fun!! Call me again when u wanna meet up .. I'm always game!!!
Wistful for Love
1:00 AM
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Friday's Galore
~Boring Week~
Did nothing the past few days ... went home early to spend time with my larling Apit. Was nice cuddling up with him during the cold weather and watching Hi 5 together.
But I'm bored to tears man!! Anybody wanna meet up for coffee? I feel like going for a movie ... a midnite movie at that ... been stuck at home and I can feel my depression creeping up on me again!
I wanted to take up badminton but alas, hubby works shift and so no partner to play with. Wanna go jogging but then again no company. sigh and I seriously need to lose weight! or else I hafta use bedsheets as my clothes real soon!!! Arghhhhh the tot of it creeps me out man!
Hmmm the CC around my place is so new so they dun have any courses for me to join.. had tot of joining the volunteer SCDF corp. At least I can learn some new things like First Aid and that kinda stuff.. I need to do something with my life!!! HELPPPPPPPpppp!
Wistful for Love
1:14 PM
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Tuesday's Thoughts
~Tuesday's thoughts~
Was on MC today. Caught the viral bug.But had no time to rest. Had to send my mum to her appointment then home for a while before going to Bedok to fetch my larling Apit. The house was so quiet without him.There may be 3 adults in the house but boy does a kid make a diffrence. The moment Apit stepped outta house there was total silence and also peace for me. Yet I missed his bubbly ramblings and constant "ma this and ma that!" Now that he's home, there is a certain kinda of peace yet chaos only mothers of "terrible twos" will understand.heheh
I didn't actually know what to blog about when I first started on today's entry but then something happened today that I just remembered. Are all old people really that senile? Or is it true when poeple say they become kids again when they grow older. the cycle starts again? if you know what I mean.
I spent the whole day with my mum.and she was really trying my patience the whole of the time I was with her. There was a certain point where I can't stand it anymore and I shouted at her in public. Then she put on her sulky face and pouting lips!! Arghhh!!! I'm going mad!!! People tell me to be patient.I have been very patient.people tell me old people are like that.. well not all!! most definitely!!
Yes, I know my mum is sick. That is why she is acting the way she is.She is suffering from end stage renal failure.A kidney patient who has to rely on dialysis in order to continue living her remaining days and trying to stretch it out as far as she can go. She wanna see me have another baby.she wanna see her beloved Apit grow up..
Yes, the kidney patients you see on TV charity shows and dramas.it is real.and life for them and their families are hell.i should know peeps. i'm going thru it rite now. I know my mum feels so useless and helpless coz there's nothing she can do to help herself and that she is sorry I hafta to bear the bruden of her medical costs and to take care of her on top of providing for my own family..
My poor mum doesn't go for haemodialysis which is the blood dialysis. the one u see people going to NKF centres,inserting huge needles into themselves and having the machines clean their blood. Even then my poor mum is going through the equally painful and more expensive CAPD.
Continuous Ambulatory Peritoneal Diaysis.She has this tube already inserted into the tummy and 4 times a days she has to drain in a bag of sugar water and drain it back out 4 hours later.. she is hurting and suffering..I feel so bad.. i wish i can take this pain away from her..
Yet she is still strong enuff to help me by caring for my Apit and cooking for me. I feel so grateful to her.. and I know, this is the time for me to repay her for bringing me into this world and for bringing me up.. yet I also know, watever I do will not suffice for all that she has done for me...
Wistful for Love
11:30 PM
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Back to the past
~Back to the past~
I watched 13 going on 30 over the weekend on the vcd.Its a rather nice story although its has such a bullshit storyline.If wishing dust could help go to any point of time in my life, I would gladly pay any amount of money for it ...
I was watching tv last nite when I suddenly reminiscence about my life.There were so many things I would have changed.But I dun regret making the mistakes I made for I would not have learnt the valuable lessons that I did...
Yet the only major thing I regretted was getting married,not for any others reasons.Dun misunderstand me.I love my son so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. He is my life.he means so much more to me than my own life
The things I regret are not being able to accomplish the many dreams I have about my life.They are simple enough dreams yet so unreachable for me.Now even if I wanna strive towards my dreams, many obstacles stand in my way.
I see people younger than me having what I have always dreamt of. I feel hatred for them sometimes. They are lucky to be born into a family that can afford to give them the pleasures they have now and families who do not have to face the problems I face now.They dun have to go through the obstacles I had to face in my teenage years.I know its unfair for me to judge them that way for I do not actually know what goes on in their lives... indulge me people.. at least I feel a lil better.. well, thats life for ya!
At least I have Afiq. He's my everything. He has just learnt to say "I love you and miss you Mama!" To hear those words before I step outta the house for work just makes my day!!
Wistful for Love
1:11 PM
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Lazy moi!
~Lazy Moi!~
Hi all, I know I've been missing for some time now.. partly coz I was busy wif work and partly coz I didn't have the mood to blog..
My trip to Malacca would have sucked badly if I didn't bum into my ex colleagues from DHL.. of all places to run into each pther! At Malacca!! heheh they were there for a soccer match.. and THEY WON!!!!! Good for them.Malacca sucked coz first of all, there was nothing there ... secondly coz my hubby still had his no fun and lazy to do something new attitude..boy its suck to go on a trip with him man!! I would have died of boredom if I didnt run into my ex colleague man!! They are such a fun batch.. I missed the days I worked in DHL..hey! They are going to keep their ears and eyes open in case there's an opening and I can go back to DHL!! Cant wait man!!
Hmmm dunno how to summarize the whole week fer you peeps but anyhow will update more regularly now.. hehe see ya!!
Wistful for Love
1:01 PM
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