I believe
It was lurve at first sound when I heard this song on American Idols' Grand Finale between Fantasia and Diana Degarmo. I like Fantasia's version but too bad they dun have it on Iwebmusic. I dunno why but this song gives me the motivation that I need.
Call me an emotional freak but I cried non stop when I heard Fantasia sing this song! Partly because the words are so powerful but I knew that when Fantasia sang this song, it was like the song was written for her...and she sang it from her heart
I dun know much about Fantasia but all I know that she's a single mum to a young girl. I dunno her life history but I gathered that she went through a lot to get to where she is now.I feel her emotions when she sang this song. Her tears ... they affected me so much even now, long after the show has ended!
Each time I hear this song on air, I feel like crying... even now as I type, my emotions are overpowering me while I listen to the song. Memories of events throughout my life seem to pass by in front of me... so many things that I have gone through.. So many obstacles I have overcome..so many more that I'm facing now..
I thank God for giving me the strength to be strong and brave in facing all His test for me... I dun hope to pass wif flying colours.. suffice that I have gone through them successfully.. Although there were the times when I know I did badly and failed miserably, taking many unbeaten paths and wrong turns to get to the rite ones..Then there were the times I did things that I now feel so shameful of,which I will lock in a chest and keep it with me and carry it all the way to my grave, I know I will not be able to face Him when one day, I have to declare to Him wat I did in my life.. Only hope for His mercifulness to pull me through..
Even though my religious knowledge is near to zilch, I'm glad my faith in Him is still strong..I dun declare myself as a good person nor do I proclaim myslef an angel .. I know I have my misgivings ..
So, to my dear families and frens, whom I treasure dearly, and whoever is reading my blog at this present moment, I might not have always been there for you... I may not be a good fren or relation to you as much as I may have wanted to, but please please please realize, I'm only human. If in any situation or incident, I hurt you in any way, be it intentionally or not, I seek your forgiveness... I try soooo very hard to nice to everyone.. I try so very hard to please everybody (although it is insanely impossible) to the extent of ignoring my own needs..
So if in any ocassion I find the need to indulge in myself,my own wants and in the process hurt you, please be magnanimous enuff to spare me that moment...BUT know this; deep inside my heart, I lurve all of you. And I treasure you so much .. coz without all of you, there might not have been so many sweet, bitter and sad memories that I can keep so dear to my heart!Nor would there be so many lesson I would have learnt to equip me with the tools live my life the way I would have wanted to and am living like now!
Thank you, from the very bottom of my heart.
Wistful for Love
11:59 PM
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